so this is the new year.
this weekend has most definatley been a relaxing one.
so far.
tomorrow andy's graduating.
what an exciting event.
i finally found out how to put music on my myspace today.
but i can't find any codes for any songs i actually like.
so finally i just chose one.
i still like it though.
anyway.
i'm so exciting.
boys are dumb.
so are girls.
but they are mostly dramatic.
i don't like how people are so two-faced. maybe i shouldn't get into this. but i think you should stop lying to yourself and everyone else and just stop. everyone knows you're a liar. everyone knows you talk about them when they're not around. they all know you're nice to everyone so they will like you. even if it means turning your back on your real friends. i thought i knew you. i know who you were. but i still am trying to find out who you are now. maybe i never knew anything at all. maybe this is really corny. yeah i think so.
just kidding about the boys being dumb part.
actually i'm not.
and you. i don't know you actually. who is you. or are. who are you. that's it. i wasn't trying to make sense. you was supposed to take the place of a word i don't know. don't try to understand me.
tonight i need to do the following:
1. finish cleaning my room.
2. do my homework.
3. get everything ready for tomorrow and school.
4. wrap presents for brother.
5. find out what i'm going to do for mom's birthday which is tomorrow.
6. watch saturday night live.
today: i did a lot. my favorite part was going over lauren's and becky and i got soaked by her garden hose. i felt like i was 3 running around and i didn't care about anything. i was just having fun. i need to relax more and not be so stressed out. life is so much better when i don't care. that sounds familiar. then we had a cheezit war on her trampoline.
problem: i had to walk up my street with my transparent soaking wet shirt. i probably should have aoifropsowepr.
also i went to subway today. i am starting to eat fresh a lot lately.
it feels like summer has already started. it was 95 degrees today according to webster bank's sign.
you probably still think i like you. but i don't. i hate how you found out. do i really make it that obvious? i don't like how you just assume things. it's not like anyone told you. i don't think they did anyway. i think about you all the time, but i know i don't like you. i don't understand this. and if you're reading this and you think it's about you, chances are, it's not because i don't think this person reads my journal.
and you. i have problems. but you already knew that. so i guess that doesn't answer your question. not like you even had a question .. also, i am an awful person and i'm sorry for me being such an awful person. i see you've moved on. it's about time. i'm very happy because you don't seem as upset. i get jealous easily. but i still continue to be a bad person by not saying anything. wow i must suckk.
i want to talk to myself and find answers to everything. i want to know so much but only i know the answers. actually i probably don't know anything.
and i'm completely serious.
ahh this only makes sense to me.
i think.
it helps me to pretend i am writing directly to a person, instead of saying he, she, they, etc. there are [real] words for this ...
YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT.
i don't like when i feel like no one understands me. it doesn't happen a lot. it's mostly when i am deep in thought, because i think, who thinks this much? and i don't know the answer once again.
today i found out mr. smith's first name is will. meaning his name is will smith. i laugh. ha.
tomorrow will be a busy day.
i hope it's a good one.
i think it will be.
and i don't feel any different.
it's already 8:35 and i haven't started to get the things on my list done. AWESOMEEE!