consequence is our need in times like this.
okay so today i definatley hated the schedule. also i walked into a girl who told me to "MOVE UGH MOVE" so i just stood there because i didn't know what was going on. then today i also found out a girl hates me for a reason i am not aware of. uhhm also i am getting kind of sick of everytihng. i was in a really bad mood when i woke up because i knew today was going to be awful, then i was in a good mood at school most of the day, then at the end of the day i was in a bad mood and i don't know why. ricky and myke always make fun of me jokingly but for some reason today it really got on my nerves. hmph. i'm working on a painting in art and i actually kinda like it. usually i hate what i do and give up the first day and don't care but i like this one. i should probably finish it soon so i don't keep adding things and messing things up. i tend to be good at messing things up.
also i thought you should know, my my my my my space is being used. surprisingly. i don't even understand it at all but whatever. i think i might get rid of it altogether.
right now i feel frusterated and annoyed and just blah and i'm not sure why. i should be happierrrr. i'm really looking forward to this weekend. hockey game, shopping, no school monday. give a hoot. what is that from? or did i make it up? i don't think i did. someone tell me please now. and who knows what else i'm up to this weekend.
also, lately a lot of people have been saying "tina you look so different with your hair like that." or something similar to that, and i just smile. but i don't know if it's a compliment or not. i liked it when i got it, then i woke up monday morning and i hated it. and i still don't really like it as much. i want to grow it out now sort of, but i hope i can get used to it.
i noticed that when people around me are upset or in a bad mood it makes me in a bad mood, depending on who it is. sometimes i just get annoyed when people are in bad moods because i don't think they have a reason to be. that probably contradicts myself more than i think. i am not making sense.
i think when i write in this i feel like i am supposed to be in a bad mood, or maybe i just am most of the time, which is kind of sad. if you know me you know i'm usually happy and smiling and whatever. maybe when i feel like updating it's because i want to complain about everything i really don't have anything to complain about. like i don't complain enough when i'm not updating. my day wasn't even that bad. nothing overly bad happened.
i just thought about the term penpal and i just realized why it was called a penpal. now i want a penpal. i want a penpal a lot. i want too much. i want i want i wantttttt. that's what my mom says when i ask her for something. but she usually says that when i ask for too much. which would be most of the time. or always.
i think if i type enough in here i'll think of more to say. i really am sucking at updating this. oh well. i don't really know what to say. i don't feel like myself today. probelmsssssfpoaffsdfer. not really though.
i wish summer would come sooner so i don't have to deal with school and everything that comes with it. example: nevermind.
i almost just deleted this entry.
this is bad. last night i missed over half of the house season finale because i was doing my science homework. i procrastinated too much. i hate that. i wish procrastination didn't exist. in 6th grade or something i learned what procrastination meant. mr. dean wrote it across the blackboard and no one knew what it said or meant. i didn't know either. then i remember mrs. karas would always call on rav and he always explained to the class what the word 'tedious' meant. this journal makes me procrastinate. okay that's enough of that. yeah.
fact:
1. i need some cards.
2. there is no 2.
someone supply me? the wall i had them on is almost full and i have a square thing on it and i want to stop adding to it and make another on my other wall. so far there are 3 new ones. actually i don't know.
speaking of which, i like the fact that beans has a hamster cage on his head. and i like the way i get home at 2:15 now. that means more procrastination will be going down. i do NOT like the fact that the clock in history, which is my last period class, always says 1:25 because it stopped, so when i sign in or out, or just look to see what time it is, it is always on the 1 and 5. i never seem to remember. it would be weird if time could stop. lame.
it's kinda funny not in a ha-ha way but in an interesting way that hannah thought background was backround (with no g). i was reminded of this by the word hamster. because i think i used to think it was hamp-ster. with a p. which it's not. also, becky used to say things and she'd be like "that's so funny" or she'd say "wanna hear something funny?" so she'd say it and it wouldn't be funny, so i'd say "that wasn't funny" or something. and my mom would say "it's not funny in a ha-ha way it's funny in an interesting way" like the word funny has two meanings. i don't think it does. actually it probably does. also, my family uses the word 'floobyjobby'. well my mom does. and my brother tries to but he doesn't know how. does anyone know what that means?
i don't think this journal is really 'me'. it should be though, seeing how it's MY journal. i don't know why i feel like it, and i don't know why, and i don't know if you understand what i'm saying. but i don't think it is. and that's unfortunate.
i think i am just tired. and it makes me not care about pretty much everything. yes-suh.
i need some direction. posmtd tsoodo tsosdf rtjwjer.
i'm getting sick of updating entries and having one comment, and then updating one entry with the word "hi" on it and getting 200 million more comments.
i was right when i said "i think if i type enough in here i'll think of more to say. "
also i thought you should know, my my my my my space is being used. surprisingly. i don't even understand it at all but whatever. i think i might get rid of it altogether.
right now i feel frusterated and annoyed and just blah and i'm not sure why. i should be happierrrr. i'm really looking forward to this weekend. hockey game, shopping, no school monday. give a hoot. what is that from? or did i make it up? i don't think i did. someone tell me please now. and who knows what else i'm up to this weekend.
also, lately a lot of people have been saying "tina you look so different with your hair like that." or something similar to that, and i just smile. but i don't know if it's a compliment or not. i liked it when i got it, then i woke up monday morning and i hated it. and i still don't really like it as much. i want to grow it out now sort of, but i hope i can get used to it.
i noticed that when people around me are upset or in a bad mood it makes me in a bad mood, depending on who it is. sometimes i just get annoyed when people are in bad moods because i don't think they have a reason to be. that probably contradicts myself more than i think. i am not making sense.
i think when i write in this i feel like i am supposed to be in a bad mood, or maybe i just am most of the time, which is kind of sad. if you know me you know i'm usually happy and smiling and whatever. maybe when i feel like updating it's because i want to complain about everything i really don't have anything to complain about. like i don't complain enough when i'm not updating. my day wasn't even that bad. nothing overly bad happened.
i just thought about the term penpal and i just realized why it was called a penpal. now i want a penpal. i want a penpal a lot. i want too much. i want i want i wantttttt. that's what my mom says when i ask her for something. but she usually says that when i ask for too much. which would be most of the time. or always.
i think if i type enough in here i'll think of more to say. i really am sucking at updating this. oh well. i don't really know what to say. i don't feel like myself today. probelmsssssfpoaffsdfer. not really though.
i wish summer would come sooner so i don't have to deal with school and everything that comes with it. example: nevermind.
i almost just deleted this entry.
this is bad. last night i missed over half of the house season finale because i was doing my science homework. i procrastinated too much. i hate that. i wish procrastination didn't exist. in 6th grade or something i learned what procrastination meant. mr. dean wrote it across the blackboard and no one knew what it said or meant. i didn't know either. then i remember mrs. karas would always call on rav and he always explained to the class what the word 'tedious' meant. this journal makes me procrastinate. okay that's enough of that. yeah.
fact:
1. i need some cards.
2. there is no 2.
someone supply me? the wall i had them on is almost full and i have a square thing on it and i want to stop adding to it and make another on my other wall. so far there are 3 new ones. actually i don't know.
speaking of which, i like the fact that beans has a hamster cage on his head. and i like the way i get home at 2:15 now. that means more procrastination will be going down. i do NOT like the fact that the clock in history, which is my last period class, always says 1:25 because it stopped, so when i sign in or out, or just look to see what time it is, it is always on the 1 and 5. i never seem to remember. it would be weird if time could stop. lame.
it's kinda funny not in a ha-ha way but in an interesting way that hannah thought background was backround (with no g). i was reminded of this by the word hamster. because i think i used to think it was hamp-ster. with a p. which it's not. also, becky used to say things and she'd be like "that's so funny" or she'd say "wanna hear something funny?" so she'd say it and it wouldn't be funny, so i'd say "that wasn't funny" or something. and my mom would say "it's not funny in a ha-ha way it's funny in an interesting way" like the word funny has two meanings. i don't think it does. actually it probably does. also, my family uses the word 'floobyjobby'. well my mom does. and my brother tries to but he doesn't know how. does anyone know what that means?
i don't think this journal is really 'me'. it should be though, seeing how it's MY journal. i don't know why i feel like it, and i don't know why, and i don't know if you understand what i'm saying. but i don't think it is. and that's unfortunate.
i think i am just tired. and it makes me not care about pretty much everything. yes-suh.
i need some direction. posmtd tsoodo tsosdf rtjwjer.
i'm getting sick of updating entries and having one comment, and then updating one entry with the word "hi" on it and getting 200 million more comments.
i was right when i said "i think if i type enough in here i'll think of more to say. "