you can't depend on anyone.
fuck me.
im so scared that i'm not going to get good enough grades to go on exchange next year... still, that doesn't motivate me enough to be studying for my renaissance exam that i have TOMORROW.
it's quite possibly the worst course ever...
anyways... if that does happen... my plan is to waitress all spring/summer.. till around july when i will hopefully have mad a butt loaf of money.. and none of it being spent on anything but to keep me alive.
then i will go travel for the end of the summer. hopefully a month if i can fund that.
i'm thinking asia...
i wanna go to thailand really bad... singapore? who knows.
did you know they speak english in singapore?
i didn't.. well not till last week.
anyways, thats what i will do!
aside from that, i need to stop thinking about the past.
what do i do that! i can't help but still think of what has happened in my life and overanalyze the HELL out of it.
everything! everything stresses me out.
mother fuck!
well, wish me luck on my exam, please.
its from 7-10pm tomorrow which is possibly the WORST time for an exam
but after im going out and celebrating at the brass and drink a whole pitcher to myself.
hahah..
uhm.
then home on sunday!
THANK GOD.
also...
is it weird to invite something of the opposite sex to christmas dinner if you are not dating them?
will your family get that impression?
will they get the wrong impression?
even if you were never really dating.. only seeing eachother for a long period of time... and it is clearly established that you are not dating at this present time?
AH...
i think i'm possibly just as bad as some of the males who have wronged me in my life..
anyways.. thats all.
im so scared that i'm not going to get good enough grades to go on exchange next year... still, that doesn't motivate me enough to be studying for my renaissance exam that i have TOMORROW.
it's quite possibly the worst course ever...
anyways... if that does happen... my plan is to waitress all spring/summer.. till around july when i will hopefully have mad a butt loaf of money.. and none of it being spent on anything but to keep me alive.
then i will go travel for the end of the summer. hopefully a month if i can fund that.
i'm thinking asia...
i wanna go to thailand really bad... singapore? who knows.
did you know they speak english in singapore?
i didn't.. well not till last week.
anyways, thats what i will do!
aside from that, i need to stop thinking about the past.
what do i do that! i can't help but still think of what has happened in my life and overanalyze the HELL out of it.
everything! everything stresses me out.
mother fuck!
well, wish me luck on my exam, please.
its from 7-10pm tomorrow which is possibly the WORST time for an exam
but after im going out and celebrating at the brass and drink a whole pitcher to myself.
hahah..
uhm.
then home on sunday!
THANK GOD.
also...
is it weird to invite something of the opposite sex to christmas dinner if you are not dating them?
will your family get that impression?
will they get the wrong impression?
even if you were never really dating.. only seeing eachother for a long period of time... and it is clearly established that you are not dating at this present time?
AH...
i think i'm possibly just as bad as some of the males who have wronged me in my life..
anyways.. thats all.