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Can you believe its been a month.
I've been trying to keep myself busy by going all out during the weekends. Getting drunk and dancing til my shoes get all dirty and my toes get stepped on. I put on the best outfits I could possibly think of, wearing that perfect shade of green to brighten up my sad eyes. I meet new people, many people. MANY NEW PEOPLE. I have fun. Or at least that's just what I'm telling myself. But when I eventually get home at 5 a.m. I don't find myself asleep in a dream. I find myself awake. My eyes wide open witnessing this nightmare. I am Lost. I am Alone. I am most of all Scared.
I have to leave my old self behind. I say to myself: Wake up! You NEVER brought out the best in him, you made him even worse. 2 years and he never changed, what makes you think he'll change overnight.
I still love him. very much actually.
But if I truly loved him, I should just let him go.
And we shall start our brand new lives... a part from each other.
I am officially admitting to the whole world that my heart is broken.
I've been trying to keep myself busy by going all out during the weekends. Getting drunk and dancing til my shoes get all dirty and my toes get stepped on. I put on the best outfits I could possibly think of, wearing that perfect shade of green to brighten up my sad eyes. I meet new people, many people. MANY NEW PEOPLE. I have fun. Or at least that's just what I'm telling myself. But when I eventually get home at 5 a.m. I don't find myself asleep in a dream. I find myself awake. My eyes wide open witnessing this nightmare. I am Lost. I am Alone. I am most of all Scared.
I have to leave my old self behind. I say to myself: Wake up! You NEVER brought out the best in him, you made him even worse. 2 years and he never changed, what makes you think he'll change overnight.
I still love him. very much actually.
But if I truly loved him, I should just let him go.
And we shall start our brand new lives... a part from each other.
I am officially admitting to the whole world that my heart is broken.