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Well well well, if it isn't me, writing on my LJ again. :P
Yes, tis true, I have returned. I really need to get in the habit of srsly posting again. =/
SO! Recent updates:
♥ Rob and I just had our 1 year anniversary
♥ I got a puppy! :D
♥ I discovered that I'm a closet shopaholic
♥ I DO NOT miss school
♥ I am moving out of my house, away from my mom
♥ I've fallen more in love with lolita
So... lets start with the bad one.
It's true. I DO NOT miss school. I hate that place. And waking up every morning knowing I'm just
going to tourcher myself by sitting in class trying to stay awake. Bleh.
I know I know, I've got to go back. And I am. Just next fall. BUT there is a reason. For one,
it;s too late to apply and get anything from financial aid at this point. Plus,
this will give me a chance to adjust to living away from my mom and save some money.
Which leads me to my next topic of discussion, leaving the nest.
Well, it's not REALLY leaving the nest. I've been sleeping at my sister's house for
about a month now, and she really likes having me around. So much that
she's asked me, several times, to move in with her. She does not
like the way my mother treats me at all, so she told me if it would make me much happier
(like I've apparently been for the past month) I could stay with her. My niece and nephew ask
me everyday when I'm moving in, they hate it when I leave for a day or two to pick up
more clothing. xD; My sister has even made me my own sewing room, something my mom
would mock me about. I just feel like I have more support here, like an actual family.
I've been very sad lately, and going out with my friends makes me feel better.
And... when we go out... we usually go shopping. And I've spent, a pretty big penny
over the last couple of months. It makes me happy to buy something. Like my hard earned
money is finally MINE to spend, and not my moms. I use to give her my paychecks,
but now I keep them and send checks for my bills. I should have done it ages ago,
but my mom would always get angry whenever I didn't pass along a paycheck.
Especially now that my paychecks are 500-600 dollars bi-weekly. She's so bitter.
BUT I CAN BUY MY CUTE HEELS AND DRESSES TO PUT ON MY OWN MONEY MAKER.
How you like me now, ma? =]
And now for the good happy fun part!
I GOT A PUPPY AND HE'S THE CUTEST THING EVER.
His name is Ouji Shiro Yuki (Prince of White Snow).
He makes me so happy! One of the things that really made me love him was his little nose.
It's black with pink on it, they said it was some type of pigmentation issue.
And since I also have that same issue I fell in love with him and took him home.
He's super hyper and cute, except when he chews on my shoes. -_-;
He cuddles up next to me and night, and when I get home from work he's so happy to see me!
He's deff made my live much happier, he makes me feel loved. I hope he knows how
much I love him too. <3 My little prince.
Rob was here last week visiting for our 1 year. =]
It was on November 7th, 2008 at 11.48pm. We went for a walk around his campus,
he threw himself in a pile of leaves, and I was too scared to follow suit since I didn't really know where we were
and people were glaring at us like we were sellin drugs or something. Then we walked up to this tree on a hill
by his dorm. He took out his laptop and played the jewlery box music version of Simple and Clean
(Because I REALLY love it <3) and handed me a black jewlery box. Inside it had a folded heart origami, with a note inside of it.
It said very plainly in a cute young school boy kind of way: "Will you go out with me?"
It was so cute and well thought out. I nearly cried, and then he asked "Can I kiss you?"
Shortly followed by "Can you teach me how first?" So we spent a good hour learning how to kiss...
But he didnt need to learn how. It was amazingly perfect without being all Hollywood.
We went to his dorm room and slept under his bed together (Since the girl who drove with me slept on it)
and we spent an interesting night together underneath the bed. It was priceless. <3
It was a week before Wrath of the Litch King came out
and that's how we both remember the date. Ha ha. I'm a geek, I know. =]
We met playing WoW, we started dating around a new expansion release date, we both love anime,
he loves seeing me dressed in lolita, and we both understand each others jokes so fuckin well. xD
He loves me cooking, and I love cooking for him. I love his family, and he loves mine. His eyes are so beautiful, and
he makes me feel so beautiful. He makes me feel like the most precious treasure in the world, like the most
legendary rare loot in the game. He's my prince in ninja armour. <3
He got my the new Kingdom Hearts game and a ring for our 1 year.
He didn't let me buy him anything, but I did anyway. A little sailor suit for the bedroom. ;]
Well, it was really a present for me, but he enjoyed more then I did. xD
He's coming down for Thanksgiving with my family, which I'm VERY excited for since he has another gift for me
then. <3 He gave himself away, and I prolly should have not told him that I knew
But I know, I know. Oh boy I know.
Lolita? Lolita.
I know this'll be cheesey to people who don't care, BUT:
I sat down and really thought about why I like it. I've always loved to be different
in a crowd of people. To stand out. To be noticed. To make people have an opinion whether it be "omg cute!" or
"dear god, wtf is that?!". Lolita is so awesome to me. It makes me feel so good and happy
and cute like a princess when I wear it. Makes me forget for a while that I'm just
a janitor going through college with a bad bad past. I forget the stress, the anger, the depression
and just prance around for a while feeling like I'm the most adorable doll come to life.
It's such a badass feeling, and I would rather dress in lolita than get drunk. It's healthier.
Granted, there are other things that get me happy as well, but I'm glad this is one thing I
can always enjoy, and with a group of awesome girls. =]
P.s. - I think I found a girl in the comm that srsly inspires me. She makes me
wanna go sew up a storm. D: She's so freakin adorable.
This is her flickr account. She's awesome. And I'd love to meet her. :P
Also made me giggle that a dress I'm making for this weekend looks alot like one she has.
I really need to get back to sewing. ;>_____>
Kk, later all!
<3