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[chokkkingvictim]

last night was crazy. i went to a show in mahopac. i dont think a lot of people there like me. i asked one person they said they hated me..... but they have reason. maybe thats why everyone there hates me haha. good show, seperation anxiety, religion recall and most of the rest kicked ass. i met some people there who were really cool, and chilled

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[bananamilkpies]

About the whole hating you thing. I have trouble hating people unless it's something about them that I don't like. It's hard when it's something they did to someone else. I realize that we all make mistakes (even if some REALLY REALLY REALLY hurt people that matter to us), but I'm used to that too. Doesn't make that whole 'incident' disappear, but like I said, it's hard for me to hate someone for something they did to someone else. I've always been like that

[chokkkingvictim]

all i can say to this is im sorry. i was being stupid and i didnt think about others feelings. now that i look at it if someone did that to me id fuckin kill them :-D. i have absolutely no bad feelings against you, id much rather be chill with you and look at the past as being something that i just fucked up in, and as you said we all make our mistakes.

i do know for one thing im never doing anything like that involved. in fact when all of this was going on she wanted to go with me to the mall to see you. i didnt wanted to because i was convinced you try to, whether succeeding or failing.. try to beat the shit out of me, so i didnt go haha.

so i can leave off with saying again i have no feelings agaisnt you and im sorry, again. and to leave off trying to forget about the past.

peace

[bananamilkpies]

That's cool. I mean, I'm one to forgive, maybe not forget, but at least forgive. I think Jess would be even more pissed if she knew we were talking, haha, but that's not all that important. It seems anything I do pisses her off lately...

Even if the past doesn't disappear, it's not going to change, no use dwelling on it. Mistakes are mistakes, and we can't fix them after that long. Trust me, my biggest mistake was letting Jess go.

It's all about looking at situations from the outside, un-biased perspective. Before I looked at it from the boyfriend view, but now I can see both sides. I always try to see both sides, from the outside.

I don't like making enemies anyway, lol. So yea, I get what you're saying.

[chokkkingvictim]

yeah i wouldnt forget it if something like that happened, and man ill say it again, sorry if i hurt you.

and by the way, if you were to have punched me at the show i probably would have taken it like a man, i deserve it.

and i hate having enemies. ive made an agreement, with myself, to hate no one unless they hate me first. i think it makes sense from pretty much a pacifist position (me).

umm hi!

[xlove_ignitesx]

hello aaron.. its kathy..nugent. add me if you want. your icon is hilarious.

Re: umm hi!

[chokkkingvictim]

ok added, now you can actually see some of my entries.

[anonymous]

Aaawww Im not a friend?
~Chrissy

[chokkkingvictim]

do you have a lj account? and of course your a friend, but i dont want my parents or jackasses reading the shit in here lol