Sadness I guess
So I went to young people's and I was getting in somebody's truck who had leather seats and I ended up falling out right onto the ground directly on my bad hip. That's is upsetting, and it hurt really bad and it makes me want to take a pill and make it feel better cuz it still hurts 4 hours later. It's scary because after 7 months of being on crutches I've been totally cool then in the last 48 hours I fell and put weight on it, so if my bones are being fragile right now I definately have misshapen my hip and I get it replaced, even if my blood has started circulating i get a new one then. If my bones are already reformed then i haven't fucked em up. My mom has been bitching at me about how selfish I am and shit for letting her know that I fell, she is driving me crazy and I don't want to tell her shit anymore and I cannot journal or I'm gonna pass out.