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I want to call my mom. Email her. Anything. I need advice. I don't know who to go to. I sometimes feel stupid talking to Mikey about everything. I need a mom's advice about how I should feel, why I feel the way I do, why I'm hanging on, if it's worth it, and so on. I want to know if she thinks I'm doing well in school. I want her to tell me to start caring about school. I wish she would get on me about making the necessary appointments. I just need a little motherly guidance.I remember always looking forward to getting advice from my mom when I wanted it, instead of when I didn't want it. Well, I want it now. I don't have anyone to fill that mother image. I mean, I have two grandmothers, but one is way too old fashioned, and the other is selfish and uppity. I don't have anyone else. I have Karin, Eric's mom, but that isn't the same. I just need to talk to someone who really cares. I'm not talking about the friend way, but the motherly way.