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its done, douglas is dead, and i dont know, i really hope he didnt sense what was going on before it happened, so that besides the pain he wasnt scared. i miss him so much, however i still got 3 others to take care of. im going to go to the show tonight to help get my mind over this, tomarrow im going upstate to bury him, my parents made a coffin out of a box and loaded it wish his old bed, and some of his stuff. it was so weird driving in the car to the place with it in the back seat, and doug on my lap while he was still alive, i wonder if he knew what it was. i dont know whatever its over and theres nothing i can do about it
why does this type of shit have to happen
why does this type of shit have to happen