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so i am trying to be happy! i really am. I mean fuck man i am moving out on DEC 30th just a lil more then a month at this house! THEN ITS FREEDOM and BILLS. But on the other hand i am so lost. A certain someone from my past is coming back and we started talking again. I am scared bc i dont know if its for reals or not. I am scared bc also Zach wants to hang out this week but i dont know if i want to do that to myself. I hate the fact that everyone out here is all iced out! It is trippy when ur sittin in a room and and people just pull out the meth and light it up. i dont like it. DUDE stay natural. haha. I love my new HOUSE though! its not really a house its an apartment. like right across the street from the beach. Its sooo cute. TWO BEDS and TWO BATHS. and sooo cheap. I LOVE IT. it makes me sooo happy that i am finally gunna do it! ME AND JAMIE! haha my phone just rang and guess who JAMIE .. as i was typing her name. i know i am odd! i dont really care. I DECICED i am gunna not feel anythin anymore. i know that sounds lame. But damn i am tired of being hurt ... tired of games i am over feelin the pain. I AM NUMB TO ALL FEELINs.
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