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THIS IS MY OWN POST, YOU DON'T HAVE TO READ IT.
IF YOU READ IT AND ANY OF THIS OFFENDS YOU, DON'T SAY I DIDN'T WARN YOU.
i don't think my friends think right of me. i'm not a bad person, really. i'm not trying to do annyyythiiing to annyyyonne... it's funny how i think i can be decent friends with someone and turn around and have them say things about me behind my back. i love confrontations and i love revenge. no, this is not about revenge. or confrontations, really. but apparently what i heard was correct? but that's all that was said about it.
i really wish those who i try to talk to didn't just get up and leave and ignore me completely letting themselves think that everything was okay. because it isn't. it makes me really sad. because i don't think it's fair that they think of me that way. without at least giving me an explanation.
it's nothing bad, really, that was said, but it's something that makes me feel uneasy. and if we don't talk about it how are we supposed to fix it? i guess we could ignore it and pretend we're still the bestest of friends, but you know very well i don't forget. not something like that. something that hurts me. i sometimes forgive. i never forget.
and who am i supposed to go to for help now?
so i'm the one who fucks up all friendships. i really thought about cutting off relations with all people that i do or would like to talk or hang out with. with the exception of the one i love. because he is there, always.
having no friends bothers me sometimes, but i get through the day, you know. i try to maintain decent friendships. i honestly try to patch up those friendships that fell apart, and it's all for nothing. it sorta annoys me how some people complain about losing important people when they don't try to fix things. i do. i try. and i feel like i'm trying to make my enemies my best friends. but, really, i'm not. not if we both know we used to be good friends.
this isn't being posted for sympathy. it's my thoughts. no one has to like them. don't tell me that i'm wrong without an explanation.
♥
IF YOU READ IT AND ANY OF THIS OFFENDS YOU, DON'T SAY I DIDN'T WARN YOU.
i don't think my friends think right of me. i'm not a bad person, really. i'm not trying to do annyyythiiing to annyyyonne... it's funny how i think i can be decent friends with someone and turn around and have them say things about me behind my back. i love confrontations and i love revenge. no, this is not about revenge. or confrontations, really. but apparently what i heard was correct? but that's all that was said about it.
i really wish those who i try to talk to didn't just get up and leave and ignore me completely letting themselves think that everything was okay. because it isn't. it makes me really sad. because i don't think it's fair that they think of me that way. without at least giving me an explanation.
it's nothing bad, really, that was said, but it's something that makes me feel uneasy. and if we don't talk about it how are we supposed to fix it? i guess we could ignore it and pretend we're still the bestest of friends, but you know very well i don't forget. not something like that. something that hurts me. i sometimes forgive. i never forget.
and who am i supposed to go to for help now?
so i'm the one who fucks up all friendships. i really thought about cutting off relations with all people that i do or would like to talk or hang out with. with the exception of the one i love. because he is there, always.
having no friends bothers me sometimes, but i get through the day, you know. i try to maintain decent friendships. i honestly try to patch up those friendships that fell apart, and it's all for nothing. it sorta annoys me how some people complain about losing important people when they don't try to fix things. i do. i try. and i feel like i'm trying to make my enemies my best friends. but, really, i'm not. not if we both know we used to be good friends.
this isn't being posted for sympathy. it's my thoughts. no one has to like them. don't tell me that i'm wrong without an explanation.
♥