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So she'll let me go.However, she will not let him drive me? Whaaat? Okay, he even wants to come meet her, but she still says no. What a freak? She has no trust for me what-so-ever. It's unbelievable how annoying it is. Is it that hard to get some freedom? I feel like all my friends have so much more freedom than I do. Jeez. AAAAAAAAND I think the only way i can really go is if someone comes with me... but i doubt Syd can go... cause she said her dad probably wouldn't let her. Darnit. But.... eh. Who knows. This is horrible feeling, I feel so locked up and like a baby. It almost makes me want to hate her. But shes my mom, and shes not going to let me do everything i want all the time. So, I just have to accept it. It would just be easier if she'd actually listen to me & what im saying sometimes instead of jumping to conclusions and freaking out. I think im going to make her read a book on trusting your damn daughter. Because she is taking this to the over protective area, and its quite frightening.
Today i hung out with kylie sydney and meghan. It was sooshkgjh sdkfjgh skg much fun. We went and got starbucks and then walked back. On the way back Meghan tripped on a construction sign and flew into it. We burst out in laughter and i almost peed my pants. Then to top that off, the construction guys that saw stopped their truck and laughed sooooooooo hard. They were doing that sort of knee clap when you laugh real real hard. I got a sunburn from walking. And im mexican? White. White mexican. "Mexicant". pft. Then we went swimming. And it was fun a lot of fun. The night before eric, joe, and marcus came over to syds house and hung out with me syd and meghan. It was pretty fun. Very very interesting. But i had to leave right when ky got thurr :[ . Summer has been pretty good so far, besides the fact that when my father left for Texas my mom roped me in like a damn cowgirl and kept me captive. She needs to let go of her little calf. Like my metaphor? Or whatev. I feel like peopel always want to hang out with me when I can't. I got 4 invitations tonite. Maybe after the show my mom will chill the fuck out. HAH. Too bad i don't really hate her and never will. Shes my momma. And I love her for trying to protect me... I just feel like she wont let me go out and experience things. It's a show... not much can happen. It's not like i havent been to a million of them.
Show a piece of mind. <3