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um life is awesome right now. but at the same time it sucks. ive come to terms that im a fat girl. i need to lose some weight. fucking i used to be a cool chick that dudes would wanna date whether i was fat or not, because of some "personality" or whatever. now my fat ass outweighs my "personality" im fatter than my traits. whatever. im lonely. i need a boy in my life, and i dont want to be fat. it increases my chances of finding someone to connect with if im hot. plus i want to fit into some shirts. my tits are too big and i never thought that would turn into a problem. everytime i go to eat something now, i think, is this better than sex? is this cheeseburger going to make me feel better than having sex with a really nice boy? and the answer is usually no. but cheesecake is a different story.