3 days
it has been better. it has been worse. the past week was the worst.
its funny because right when i think ive got a handle on things, they change... not necessarily for the better... but change.
ive got a good grip on myself. my neighbor was talking to me tonight about how weird i can be and maybe that effecting friendships around me. she says i have serious trust issues and have some type of phobia of people because i get really nervous when the bus is crowded and i get mad when her friend play hits me... and i could go on forever, but i guess i am like that.. i can play around with people and pretend to want to have contact but the second someone touches me and i dont like them... oh man.. oh and im not a morning person... at all. im very quiet and to myself.
columbia excites me. im 99 percent ill get in, but theres always that little chance that makes me want to cry. if i go there im moving out, which means living in downtown chicago surrounded by beautiful boys and girls ill probably be jealous of... i cant wait. its going to be so different from res. thank the lord i wont have to learn about him.
its officially summer in my book... i broke out the basketball and won a game of 21 and skated at night... now i must shower yet again.
i leave you with a dedication to all of you... good or bad...
you've made me who i am... you've made me that much stronger... pfft.
its funny because right when i think ive got a handle on things, they change... not necessarily for the better... but change.
ive got a good grip on myself. my neighbor was talking to me tonight about how weird i can be and maybe that effecting friendships around me. she says i have serious trust issues and have some type of phobia of people because i get really nervous when the bus is crowded and i get mad when her friend play hits me... and i could go on forever, but i guess i am like that.. i can play around with people and pretend to want to have contact but the second someone touches me and i dont like them... oh man.. oh and im not a morning person... at all. im very quiet and to myself.
columbia excites me. im 99 percent ill get in, but theres always that little chance that makes me want to cry. if i go there im moving out, which means living in downtown chicago surrounded by beautiful boys and girls ill probably be jealous of... i cant wait. its going to be so different from res. thank the lord i wont have to learn about him.
its officially summer in my book... i broke out the basketball and won a game of 21 and skated at night... now i must shower yet again.
i leave you with a dedication to all of you... good or bad...
you've made me who i am... you've made me that much stronger... pfft.