Apr 12, 2005 20:48
so me and travis broke up. I feel like shit. it happend on sunday night. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do. well it was him who really anitiated it... there were just too many things coming in between our relationship, and we never had time for eachother and we were starting to fight alot. but no matter how bad it hurts, I know that we do need a break from eachother. I dont know if we are ever going to get back together, I hope so. we need to work on our friendship before we can have a relationship so... I just hope he dosent find someone else. It would kill me if he found someone else. I dont think I could take it if I saw him with a new girlfriend. I would probably have a nervous breakdown. as far as us being "friends" so far it sucks. we were supposed to hang out and he blew me off and called me later that night.... I dont think he even wants to be friends with me... I think he told me that to make me feel better about us not being together anymore. if he did... I think he would have spent time with me. It hurts so bad to go to school and see him, its so hard not to cry. I am trying not to cry right now. everytime I think about it I want to cry. I hate this more that anything. I want to go lay in my bed now.