Sigh.

Jan 02, 2005 02:47

So, happy 2005, or something like that.

So I guess I've lost another friend, which doesn't really shock me, I'm just sick of it. I can only put up with it so many times before it hurts so much that I can't feel anything anymore.

My head is throbbing. I'm sick of losing people.

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I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

[Chorus]

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A little sappy. So bite me.

Go away. For the love of God, stop saying you care. Stop pretending all this shit, I'm sick of hearing it. Everybody keeps saying they'll care, they'll care, and it's like one big fucking lie. "I'll care." Sure, and a week later you won't look at me, won't talk to me. I try, I swear I try. But nothing ever changes. Ever.

It's like it doesn't matter. Every single fucking time it never matters, never will matter, because it's always the same damn thing. Nothing will fucking change, so stop telling me you'll care when you've found someone else who can make you laugh and can hold your hand and make you feel better. You know what? Fuck off, 2005. Last year sucked and you will too.

End of rant.
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