little fallen angel with a broken wing
what a horrible, wretched day. today i saw the x-ray of my little girl's collarbone and it is snapped in half like a little pencil. on top of that, it's "as displaced as possible". i spent the whole morning and early afternoon dragging her around all over creation to see doctors. first her normal pediatrician, then the x-ray place, then back to the pediatrician, and then off to the local orthopedic dr. now she's being referred to the area's pediatric orthopedic specialist. for extra lack of control, we are not supposed to call them, they will call us.
i first noticed it on saturday. there's a little bony point poking up by her neck. i honestly can't say life hasn't been anything but normal for her. all the usual tumbles, trips, and wrestling with bruce. she's also been quite happy lately too. why she's not screaming morning noon and night is a total mystery. every time i think about that x-ray it makes my stomach hurt.
the physician's assistant at the local orthopedic dr and our regular pediatrician told us that normally clavicles just mend themselves together. they're so damn chirpy when they tell me that dana's little bone will grow with her and sort itself out. i really want to believe that, but the two pieces are just flapping around. they're not even touching each other, they look like this on the xray: / \ . for real. these things are not just going to magically find each other, join, and be okie dokie.
ugh, the only two non-shitty things that happened today was that 1) byron happened to be working from home and was available to pick up childcare slack; and 2) i could spend 1.5hrs at a playdate this afternoon where i was given some tea w/sympathy while shelling pecans with my bare hands to relieve stress.
i first noticed it on saturday. there's a little bony point poking up by her neck. i honestly can't say life hasn't been anything but normal for her. all the usual tumbles, trips, and wrestling with bruce. she's also been quite happy lately too. why she's not screaming morning noon and night is a total mystery. every time i think about that x-ray it makes my stomach hurt.
the physician's assistant at the local orthopedic dr and our regular pediatrician told us that normally clavicles just mend themselves together. they're so damn chirpy when they tell me that dana's little bone will grow with her and sort itself out. i really want to believe that, but the two pieces are just flapping around. they're not even touching each other, they look like this on the xray: / \ . for real. these things are not just going to magically find each other, join, and be okie dokie.
ugh, the only two non-shitty things that happened today was that 1) byron happened to be working from home and was available to pick up childcare slack; and 2) i could spend 1.5hrs at a playdate this afternoon where i was given some tea w/sympathy while shelling pecans with my bare hands to relieve stress.