happiness :)

[chodemnky]

wow - tonight was really nice - yesterday was really nice and today started out kinda slow. we were both a little cabin-feverish. we drove around aimlessly for a little bit (which was still fun i don't care what she says) :) then we got some domino's and came back to my house, which was w/o power. we lit 3 candles and just laid there with my sliding glass door open. to see her skin glow in the soft warmth of the candles was amazing. how soft her skin felt - how her eyes and hair looked (before the ....you know).... ;).......it was just really really nice to lay there w/ her. we've been talking stupidly lately, which as long as we both realize we're talking stupidly it's ok. i really like it - being able to say whatever things i am thinking about - no matter how silly/far fetched. right now she's playing xbox tennis and yelling about how she's an idiot - even though she's winning 3 games to 0...... ....these times are so nice - just having her here with me - shes become so much to me in these past months - my best friend - my lover....we sharpie-tattoo'ed each other yesterday - that was fun :).....i can't get her out of my head. i love her so much.....even though i was in a 5yr relationship it never felt like this.......i never knew this could exist. im so happy to find out that it can be real and is indeed in my grasp at the moment.

i never want to let her go.....*sigh*

(she just won her first xbox tennis match with her made-up character and gave me this big 10yr old smile) :)

*sigh*.....im in love......