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[chodemnky]

i miss my baby already :) we had lunch together today. that was nice - i'm glad she got to meet the people that i spend the majority of my school time with. she wasnt as comfortable as can be, which was understandable, because she didn't know any of my friends, but having her company was really nice. i want to show her off to everybody i know. im so proud to call her my girlfriend. after practice today was a little rough though. it was an analytical day, and i got a little upset. i guess the fact that i'm so open and standing completely naked (not literally) before her makes me a little scared. she could crush me if she wanted to. no one has ever held influence in my life like that before. not even the woman i was in a 5yr relationship with. my baby girl means so much to me. i think the best course of action is for me to realize that - no matter what happens at the time - no matter what is said in a particular mood - that i need to trust the love that we share to shine through anything, and if we're supposed to be together we will be when the dust settles. i just can't help it. i love her so much. i almost cry every time i look deeply at her and tell her i love her. it was so nice to have her sleeping like a lil baby on my bed tonight, with the soft glow of the tv on her skin, with her upper back poking through the covers. i just laid there, tickled her back, and whispered words in her ear that she didnt hear. the feeling is truly indescribable. when im with her the rest of the world blurs and she is in focus. when im not with her - im thinking about the next time i will be. which actually, come to think of it, will be most of the day tomorrow :) yay - see, it's thoughts like that that make the sleep so peaceful. i miss her as soon as i leave her parking lot. i miss how she smells, i miss her voice, i miss how she looks at me, i miss her skin, her touch, her smile, her outragelously contorted spasming feet :)......i miss it all

tomorrow needs to hurry the fuck up - i ain't got time to sleep :)

you think i'm in love?....

that doesn't even come close to saying it