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so i'm home from new jersey...now what?? i haven't accomplished much of anything today, but what's new? i guess i could motivate myself to maybe take a walk..do some crunches..i don't know, something productive.
brandi (that rambunxious dog of mine) gave me a heart attack today..she was breathing heavy and shaking and i thought "holy crap..i'm going to be the last one to see the dog alive." i convinced myself to leave her alone for a little while and now she's back to normal: sleeping. however, i am still checking on her randomly to make sure she's still breathing. i don't want to be the last one to see the dog alive..yet i don't want to not be here with her when she goes. why am i sharing all of this?
after all the craziness of the week..i'd say my new jersey trip was more of an experience than a vacation. this is nothing surprising...i love my family dearly and i miss them of course, but things are much different there; it's a different way of life and i'm not trying to say that we're all gun-toting hillbillies in the fine state of Georgia or that everyone in New Jersey is a cracked-out mobster..the two places are just different and no matter how many times i visit, these differences will never be reconciled. for some reason every member of my family there trusts me with their problems; and not realizing i'm trying to take a vacation, they share their problems with me. don't get me wrong, everyone deserves a good vent, but i'm not sure why they haven't found other people to vent to. after all, i only visit about once a year..i can't be that dependable.
my adventures in nj make me realize how thankful i am that fate brought us here. without that move i can say with certainty that i would be nothing like the person i am today. i am not perfect but without separating myself from the vacuum that nj tends to become, i believe my flaws would be magnified to a much greater magnitude.
with one adventure down, i'm closer to being ready to take on the summer...i don't want it to fly by and i know i need to make the most of every day..or else, what's the point in waking up? it's time to get some sunshine and get out there...and see what's waiting for me.
brandi (that rambunxious dog of mine) gave me a heart attack today..she was breathing heavy and shaking and i thought "holy crap..i'm going to be the last one to see the dog alive." i convinced myself to leave her alone for a little while and now she's back to normal: sleeping. however, i am still checking on her randomly to make sure she's still breathing. i don't want to be the last one to see the dog alive..yet i don't want to not be here with her when she goes. why am i sharing all of this?
after all the craziness of the week..i'd say my new jersey trip was more of an experience than a vacation. this is nothing surprising...i love my family dearly and i miss them of course, but things are much different there; it's a different way of life and i'm not trying to say that we're all gun-toting hillbillies in the fine state of Georgia or that everyone in New Jersey is a cracked-out mobster..the two places are just different and no matter how many times i visit, these differences will never be reconciled. for some reason every member of my family there trusts me with their problems; and not realizing i'm trying to take a vacation, they share their problems with me. don't get me wrong, everyone deserves a good vent, but i'm not sure why they haven't found other people to vent to. after all, i only visit about once a year..i can't be that dependable.
my adventures in nj make me realize how thankful i am that fate brought us here. without that move i can say with certainty that i would be nothing like the person i am today. i am not perfect but without separating myself from the vacuum that nj tends to become, i believe my flaws would be magnified to a much greater magnitude.
with one adventure down, i'm closer to being ready to take on the summer...i don't want it to fly by and i know i need to make the most of every day..or else, what's the point in waking up? it's time to get some sunshine and get out there...and see what's waiting for me.