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i haven't updated this thing in a while. i guess it's because i feel like if i do then i have to fess up to all of the things that have been stressing me out the past week or so.
homework. it's a witch. and it doesn't seem like the pile ever gets any smaller. ever. no matter what i do. but it'll get better. thanksgiving is almost here and then christmas break. the only thing that really separates the two is a final exam, my religion midterm and about a weeks' worth of work which i know i will resent because i know by then i'll want to be at home. but nonetheless it'll be money i wouldn't otherwise have so i can buy people presents - something i love to do.
i'm really excited about christmas break. no lie. part of the fam is going to new jersey the week before christmas and i'm really excited about being able to see my grandfather. i don't think anyone can understand how much i love this man, he is an angel, i have no doubts. i talked to him yesterday and it made me want to cry because he believes in me so much and wants the best for me and i hate so much that he's so freakin' far away and my cousins that are 2 hours from him couldn't care less to go see him or even make a phone call. i told him i wanted to go to new york to see the rockefeller christmas tree and he told me we could do whatever i wanted to..but he couldn't remember if he had ever gone to see it. here's a man who was born about 15 (walking) minutes from new york city and has grown up in the state next door his entire life, but he's never been to see one of my favorite things on earth. needless to say it broke my heart into about a billion pieces. it makes me realize how selfish i am when i complain about stupid things and here my grandfather is telling me that we can do whatever it is i want to do while in new jersey when he's on a very limited income, his wife of over fifty years lives 20 minutes away in a nursing home because she has alzheimer's and he's lonely and depressed because he doesn't know how to live life without her. now who cares that my hair straightener died yesterday? i don't anymore because i know that no matter what happens to me, i want to make sure that pop is ok.
enough ranting. it's tuesday which means a few classes, some yoga with bridge and gamma sig tonight...first exec is tonight! get excited.
homework. it's a witch. and it doesn't seem like the pile ever gets any smaller. ever. no matter what i do. but it'll get better. thanksgiving is almost here and then christmas break. the only thing that really separates the two is a final exam, my religion midterm and about a weeks' worth of work which i know i will resent because i know by then i'll want to be at home. but nonetheless it'll be money i wouldn't otherwise have so i can buy people presents - something i love to do.
i'm really excited about christmas break. no lie. part of the fam is going to new jersey the week before christmas and i'm really excited about being able to see my grandfather. i don't think anyone can understand how much i love this man, he is an angel, i have no doubts. i talked to him yesterday and it made me want to cry because he believes in me so much and wants the best for me and i hate so much that he's so freakin' far away and my cousins that are 2 hours from him couldn't care less to go see him or even make a phone call. i told him i wanted to go to new york to see the rockefeller christmas tree and he told me we could do whatever i wanted to..but he couldn't remember if he had ever gone to see it. here's a man who was born about 15 (walking) minutes from new york city and has grown up in the state next door his entire life, but he's never been to see one of my favorite things on earth. needless to say it broke my heart into about a billion pieces. it makes me realize how selfish i am when i complain about stupid things and here my grandfather is telling me that we can do whatever it is i want to do while in new jersey when he's on a very limited income, his wife of over fifty years lives 20 minutes away in a nursing home because she has alzheimer's and he's lonely and depressed because he doesn't know how to live life without her. now who cares that my hair straightener died yesterday? i don't anymore because i know that no matter what happens to me, i want to make sure that pop is ok.
enough ranting. it's tuesday which means a few classes, some yoga with bridge and gamma sig tonight...first exec is tonight! get excited.