ho hum
well, matt left this morning. i feel like crap. i didn't say bye to him saturday night, and i wanted to see him yesterday real quick. i understand he'd be reallly busy packing and stuff but i called him at 1:00 in the afternoon and he didn't call me back the whole day. i was really upset that he just didn't care. so then i called him again at like 9:45 and left a voicemail saying goodbye and went to bed. when he called me back at 10, i was half asleep and really upset so i was mean. so now i haveta go a week and a half knowing i was super mean and he left with us like that. i feel bad and i hope he's not mad. but i couldn't help it. he can go around all the time acting like we're dating "without the title" (right susan?) and when it comes down to it he doesn't even care to say goodbye when he leaves on a trip. i know he prolly won't miss me, but i'm going to miss him, and now i'll be waiting on the edge of my seat till he comes back so i can say sorry. DAMNIT!