recycling
my life feels like it's recycling through. I always fuck up friendships and move on and find new one's but never really go back to the old one's. Well this time I've recycled through I have my new friends but friends from my past are also becoming part of my present. I don't know why I'm saying this i don't think it's a good or bad thing it's just a thing. However there is one person in particular i just can't let back in my life period and this is why.
Over time you're SUPPOSED to change...become wiser, maybe your personality changes a little bit, your morals, your ideal thinking but no not this person. I was her best friend for a short time but new her like the back of my hand and she thinks i really believe she doesn't do anything anymore (i'm not dumb). Not only this but she still thinks she's fooling people about who she is...and she still doesn't know or doesn't want to admitt that everytime she turns her back someone says something. Also you really have some damn nerve coming to work at the same place i do when you knew damn well i was already working there. I'm sorry but whenever i speak to you or I'm around you I'm disgusted. I'm disgusted with the type of person you are and how at the end of every escapade you wonder why you're still miserable and left with no TRUE friends. I just don't want to go back to that place and you're one person i can't let back in my life...even though I miss our times together, my life is just so much better without you i don't want the chance of you ruining it again...yes YOU ruining it by stealing my friends, my friends not inviting me around cause they don't want you around, destorying my friends lives and finally after a year they're okay. I just don't want it i can't have it, i won't let you.
I always wondered if we'd be friends again but i just can't do it and i won't. You're like the plague and I'm stearing clear...but for every plague there's a cure or solution and i don't have to run anymore i just don't have to accept your idiot self either. You want to kill yourself and live miserable forever go right ahead but have some respect and do it by yourself cause i just can't care anymore and i don't feel guilty...not anymore
In other news Lee and I have been together for 9 months on the 24th :)
Dane and i are friends again just like we always should have been and that makes me feel great
Also I hungout with Peyton Holland he's still adorable
As for Ali...i don't miss him...he might be in school but he hasn't changed...i don't want to have my guard up all the time around one of my *friends* when he's with a girlfriend of like 3 years or 4 years i dunno it just shouldn't be that way. I thought about it once but that was once and he's not what i need or what i'd ever want really...he's a good friend for advice but i don't want him back in my life either
Community service is almost over
Counseling class is over end of september
License comes back next month
fixing car
working my ass off
taking dance boot camp in july...
i think that's it
MUAH!!!
Over time you're SUPPOSED to change...become wiser, maybe your personality changes a little bit, your morals, your ideal thinking but no not this person. I was her best friend for a short time but new her like the back of my hand and she thinks i really believe she doesn't do anything anymore (i'm not dumb). Not only this but she still thinks she's fooling people about who she is...and she still doesn't know or doesn't want to admitt that everytime she turns her back someone says something. Also you really have some damn nerve coming to work at the same place i do when you knew damn well i was already working there. I'm sorry but whenever i speak to you or I'm around you I'm disgusted. I'm disgusted with the type of person you are and how at the end of every escapade you wonder why you're still miserable and left with no TRUE friends. I just don't want to go back to that place and you're one person i can't let back in my life...even though I miss our times together, my life is just so much better without you i don't want the chance of you ruining it again...yes YOU ruining it by stealing my friends, my friends not inviting me around cause they don't want you around, destorying my friends lives and finally after a year they're okay. I just don't want it i can't have it, i won't let you.
I always wondered if we'd be friends again but i just can't do it and i won't. You're like the plague and I'm stearing clear...but for every plague there's a cure or solution and i don't have to run anymore i just don't have to accept your idiot self either. You want to kill yourself and live miserable forever go right ahead but have some respect and do it by yourself cause i just can't care anymore and i don't feel guilty...not anymore
In other news Lee and I have been together for 9 months on the 24th :)
Dane and i are friends again just like we always should have been and that makes me feel great
Also I hungout with Peyton Holland he's still adorable
As for Ali...i don't miss him...he might be in school but he hasn't changed...i don't want to have my guard up all the time around one of my *friends* when he's with a girlfriend of like 3 years or 4 years i dunno it just shouldn't be that way. I thought about it once but that was once and he's not what i need or what i'd ever want really...he's a good friend for advice but i don't want him back in my life either
Community service is almost over
Counseling class is over end of september
License comes back next month
fixing car
working my ass off
taking dance boot camp in july...
i think that's it
MUAH!!!