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Dear Livejournal,
I'm laying off on the Navy thing for a while...It's still something I want to do very much but after discussing it with my family I had a bit of a change of heart so I won't be going n e where for a while....not that any of you really cared but it's kewl
been hanging out with Brandy's ex boyfriend Phil...we're actually good friends now even though we hated eachother before...i think it's cuz we both wanted brandy's full attention constantly and we couldn't have it...plus we're both more mature now whether he wants to admitt it or not haha. So the new crew is Phil, Donny, Tony, Chris, Justin, and Heath....these are the new boys in my life and i love them all. We go up to Chris' house and chill out on the lake and we don't always have to have a party or be getting fucked up....it's just chillin and i luv it.
Donny is new boy in my life...don't know what to do with him....we met 2 years ago when he was an ass to me....then we started hanging out recently and now he is interested...should i go for it??? or should i do to him what he did to me in the past??? In any case my spirits were lifted today aobut the whole situation because Phil said Donny asked if I was going to come up and hangout with them and when Phil said yes the response was "Score" lol cute right??? too bad everyone was lame and didn't wanna go up to the lake....fuck u
Heather and I and our thing that we had i believe is dead and I'm glad...I don't want to be with someone who is hot and cold constantly and someone I ahve to take care of....in this day and age I believe the relationship should be 50/50 whether it's with a guy or girl...it's not fair to make one person pay for everything with their hard earned money...and she wanted me to be wrapped around her fingers...too bad I wasn't and I think that frustrated her a lot that no she wasn't my entire life and I had no problems moving on...but it was fun while it lasted
I'm so fucking frustrated with myself for not having a job right now or driving or anything...I just really hate myself for it and call me crazy but I'm finding it hard to deal with myself from day to day
In a few hours I have to go work with my dad (well i asked cuz i haven't started a job yet and I need money and he said i could work with him) and I will make the appointment for my license some time in there and then maybe see Donny??? that would make me smile...but I won't get my hopes up
btw SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE comes on every wednesday and thursday at 8 on fox I believe...u should watch it it's pretty amazing
and I guess that's it for now....dunno when I'll update again....maybe I'll just get rid of this stupid thing and actually deal with my problems instead of writing to the internet...who knows
Mel
I'm laying off on the Navy thing for a while...It's still something I want to do very much but after discussing it with my family I had a bit of a change of heart so I won't be going n e where for a while....not that any of you really cared but it's kewl
been hanging out with Brandy's ex boyfriend Phil...we're actually good friends now even though we hated eachother before...i think it's cuz we both wanted brandy's full attention constantly and we couldn't have it...plus we're both more mature now whether he wants to admitt it or not haha. So the new crew is Phil, Donny, Tony, Chris, Justin, and Heath....these are the new boys in my life and i love them all. We go up to Chris' house and chill out on the lake and we don't always have to have a party or be getting fucked up....it's just chillin and i luv it.
Donny is new boy in my life...don't know what to do with him....we met 2 years ago when he was an ass to me....then we started hanging out recently and now he is interested...should i go for it??? or should i do to him what he did to me in the past??? In any case my spirits were lifted today aobut the whole situation because Phil said Donny asked if I was going to come up and hangout with them and when Phil said yes the response was "Score" lol cute right??? too bad everyone was lame and didn't wanna go up to the lake....fuck u
Heather and I and our thing that we had i believe is dead and I'm glad...I don't want to be with someone who is hot and cold constantly and someone I ahve to take care of....in this day and age I believe the relationship should be 50/50 whether it's with a guy or girl...it's not fair to make one person pay for everything with their hard earned money...and she wanted me to be wrapped around her fingers...too bad I wasn't and I think that frustrated her a lot that no she wasn't my entire life and I had no problems moving on...but it was fun while it lasted
I'm so fucking frustrated with myself for not having a job right now or driving or anything...I just really hate myself for it and call me crazy but I'm finding it hard to deal with myself from day to day
In a few hours I have to go work with my dad (well i asked cuz i haven't started a job yet and I need money and he said i could work with him) and I will make the appointment for my license some time in there and then maybe see Donny??? that would make me smile...but I won't get my hopes up
btw SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE comes on every wednesday and thursday at 8 on fox I believe...u should watch it it's pretty amazing
and I guess that's it for now....dunno when I'll update again....maybe I'll just get rid of this stupid thing and actually deal with my problems instead of writing to the internet...who knows
Mel