I wish.
I wish I could fight this depression.
I wish I could get a decent job.
I wish I didn't have to live with my parents, after living nearly three years on my own.
I wish I was stronger.
But most of all?
I wish UAFA would pass, so I could be with the woman I love, my woman I married, my wife, instead of thousands of miles apart in another country. I wish I could be in America, where there are three different companies who want to hire me, but can't because of redtape.
I wish we could be together, starting our lives properly, instead of spending our first wedding anniversary apart and being in limbo.
I wish we could be together, me teaching her how to horse-ride properly and her reminding and retraining my tennis skills.
I wish we could do yoga together and that she would be there waiting for me at the finish line when I do my long-distance running.
I wish we could be together, so she could play with my hair and cuddle me until we fall asleep.
I wish I had photographs of us playing in the kitchen when I was trying to bake, and she bumped the flour over us.
I wish I had photographs of her fixing my hem for me, instead of letting me take the sewing machine out to give it a "quick-fix".
I wish I had photographs of the look on our faces when I said "yes, I'll marry you".
I wish we could be together now, so I could look after her when she's sick.
Yes, I am another woman. I am bisexual.
I just wish people would see that my love for her is real, and VALID.
That it's not different from anybody elses'.
That when she hurts, I bleed. That when she smiles, I laugh in joy.
And when she cries? I wipe the tears from my face.
We have been through so much in our lives, both separate and apart;
I wish the Universe would let us live together in peace for we definitely deserve it for the hell we've lived.
I wish I could get a decent job.
I wish I didn't have to live with my parents, after living nearly three years on my own.
I wish I was stronger.
But most of all?
I wish UAFA would pass, so I could be with the woman I love, my woman I married, my wife, instead of thousands of miles apart in another country. I wish I could be in America, where there are three different companies who want to hire me, but can't because of redtape.
I wish we could be together, starting our lives properly, instead of spending our first wedding anniversary apart and being in limbo.
I wish we could be together, me teaching her how to horse-ride properly and her reminding and retraining my tennis skills.
I wish we could do yoga together and that she would be there waiting for me at the finish line when I do my long-distance running.
I wish we could be together, so she could play with my hair and cuddle me until we fall asleep.
I wish I had photographs of us playing in the kitchen when I was trying to bake, and she bumped the flour over us.
I wish I had photographs of her fixing my hem for me, instead of letting me take the sewing machine out to give it a "quick-fix".
I wish I had photographs of the look on our faces when I said "yes, I'll marry you".
I wish we could be together now, so I could look after her when she's sick.
Yes, I am another woman. I am bisexual.
I just wish people would see that my love for her is real, and VALID.
That it's not different from anybody elses'.
That when she hurts, I bleed. That when she smiles, I laugh in joy.
And when she cries? I wipe the tears from my face.
We have been through so much in our lives, both separate and apart;
I wish the Universe would let us live together in peace for we definitely deserve it for the hell we've lived.