(no subject)
the thing about making decision is that, no matter how much you think about it, rationalize it, you still cant seem to decide. and when you finally make the decision, you start to regret it. you start to think about "what if", think about "why", and you start to second guess your decision again.
it was hard coming to this decision, it was hard giving up something that i treasure and i have always wished and hoped for. there are many things in life i can't do at the same time. but when giving the choice, i have always done the thing that i know that 20 years down, i will not regret doing it. but now, i think i have the very one thing that i will regret for years to come. maybe not regret, but think back to what it could have lead to, what it could have been.
but now, all is cast and set. so goodbye, and hello.
it was hard coming to this decision, it was hard giving up something that i treasure and i have always wished and hoped for. there are many things in life i can't do at the same time. but when giving the choice, i have always done the thing that i know that 20 years down, i will not regret doing it. but now, i think i have the very one thing that i will regret for years to come. maybe not regret, but think back to what it could have lead to, what it could have been.
but now, all is cast and set. so goodbye, and hello.