Im so annoyed with everyhing...
Ok so I know I haven’t posted in such a long time but between work, school and preparing for the new baby, ive been so busy and over stressed.
Let’s see, me and my husband went to Anne Arundel Mills today and went shopping, I got my nails done and we went to the movies. So I was fine getting my feet massaged and nails done but I was just a little annoyed with the questions he was asking me. All I wanted to do was sit back, relax and not think. That’s like me coming into the middle of the super bowl and asking him what he wants for dinner…… stupid isn’t it? Anyways I got over that.
So then we went maternity shopping because my work pants didn’t fit my stomach anymore. (Im a bartender and we have to wear black dress pants). So I found the perfect pair and now it’s on to the movies. So I wanted to see an early movie because I wanted to leave as soon as possible. (We went to see The Last Air Bender). So he was complaining that the movie wasn’t in 3D blah blah blah. Whatever so we waited another hour to see the damn thing.
In the meantime ive only had breakfast up to this point. The whole purpose of the movie is so that I could at least snack on something. So by the time we got there I was exhausted from walking. And there was nothing I could eat at the fucking movie theatre anyway. I was pissed off and annoyed to say the least.
The movie was good but this is when the good part comes in. so im driving home on 495 which is wonderful and I suck at directions. But I managed to get where im going. So he’s like did you really let a tractor trailer pass you on 495. Right then and there I wanted to punch him in his fuckin face. Seriously? You already know I can’t see at night when it comes to driving and im Closter phobic. Every time I get near one of the Tractor trailers my anxiety goes from 1 to 1million. (He can’t drive unless he clears his tickets~long story). So about 29 minutes later this dumb ass tells me to get off at an exit, I can’t see anything and catches an attitude when I cant merge. Im beyond annoyed at this time. So im like what do you want me to do. You know I can’t see at night. And he’s like why the fuck are you driving anyways. I want to say to him because your broke fuckin ass can’t keep from getting tickets so you can’t drive and I was trying to be nice and take us out somewhere nice and relaxing to go. But me thinking with my head first didn’t say anything. And honestly im glad I didn’t because im almost sure I would have regretted that.
It just pissed me off so bad. Like why would you even say that? You know I hate driving to begin with. And when I decide to go 48 miles out of the way so we can have a nice day that’s the only thing you can come up with????
So on this exit that leads to I don’t know where. I ask him where am I going I can’t see. He tells me after I miss the turn. Which ive told him so many times before I CANT SEE SHIT AT NIGHT. I CANT SEE THE SIGNS OR THE LINES ON THE ROAD. Was I talking in a different language or something??? So I was like why would you take me someplace where I don’t know where im driving and you know I cant see??
If we would have stayed on 495 I would have known exactly where we were going to get home. No he wants to take a fucking short cut. Then has the nerve to yell at me pull the fucking car over. I swear if I had a gun with me I would have killed him.
Im trying not to stress out but that shit had my blood pressure high and it doesn’t help that IM PREGNANT dumb ass……
So yeah that was my day. We got home he went into the bed room and didn’t say anything. I sat in the kitchen and felt like I was going to thrown up. Like my apatite is so gone and I can’t really keep anything down because my nerves are so bad right now my hands are shaking.
I felt so bad because of how I reacted. Like right now the only thing I want to do is cry my eyes out. I don’t know if it’s the hormones or just because I feel so bad about yelling at him………
I really don’t know anything anymoreL