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wanna know what i fucking hate? i hate it when people break up or whatever, and then they say they'll still be friends but then one person doesn't even fucking TALK to the other...and fucking avoids them!!!!! it is not only incredibly immature but also incredibly rude. i ONLY wanted to be FRIENDS with this person and they have to go and do this and make me feel like nothing. i deffinitely DON'T even LIKE him at all anymore. and even if i did...i know i'mm always flattered when guys like me even when their hideous. and in this case i don't like him at all anymore. like not even a little! and i guess he just needs to act his way towards me cause he feels insecure or something. and he doesnt even care that i feel used..all he cares about is how he looks and that is deffinitely not friend like. i know that i would put my life up before my friends, and i dont give a damn how i look. i just care about how others feel and i feel. whatever. i'm fucking gonna not even talk toh im anymore if this is how he'll treat me because he isn't worth it and i shouldn't waste my time with such crap even IF i just want to be friends with him. whatev. i have so many better friends who don't avoid me and who actually care about me and will have my back through everything. it's guys like him that you can't trust for shit cause you never know when he'll backstab yah. those kind of guys go no where and end up with some shit hole job like a janitor at holy names (lol!) cause then they could actually check out young girls while their 80 year old fat, alcoholic, druggie self has never had a decent girl, only the nasty aids, chlamydia, gonnoria, herpes, whores out there that he has to pay for. fuck this. enough of my bitching. EVERYONE has told me he's not even worth my time trying to be friends with ANYWAYS. so maybe i should just listen to them. i just liked thinking that maybe he could improve but i guess that's impossible if he doesn't even try.
and anyways i know a way better guy who actually respects me. :). ;).
on a happier note...went shoppin downtown today with lauren and galen. got a bunch of shite for xmas. which made me happy. even though i was freezing my arse of the ENTIRE time. but whatev. J Crew is like my fav store. SO much cute stuff and really chic too. anyways gonna go and make the BEST out of a 4 day weekend. Love ya all lots...well most of you anyways. :).
and anyways i know a way better guy who actually respects me. :). ;).
on a happier note...went shoppin downtown today with lauren and galen. got a bunch of shite for xmas. which made me happy. even though i was freezing my arse of the ENTIRE time. but whatev. J Crew is like my fav store. SO much cute stuff and really chic too. anyways gonna go and make the BEST out of a 4 day weekend. Love ya all lots...well most of you anyways. :).