Lumpty Dumpty
Oh man, the lumps in my neck are back. The weird, kinda painful lumps that I had 7 years ago...the ones the doctors never did figure out....even though they were going to OPERATE on me. I was like...wait, if you don't know what's wrong with me, then how do you know I need surgery? I wasn't up for that. No thank you. So I got attuned to reiki, and I did lots'n'lots'n'lots of reiki.... and the lumps disappeared. Yay no surgery!!
And now, 7 years later, *cue creepy Poltergeist girl voice* they'rrrrrrrrreeee baaaaaaack.
Grrrrrrrrr. They are painful. They are all over the right side of my neck, and only the right side. I'm hoping it's actually some weird lymph node swelling thingamajig. Last time around, I did have two lumps that didn't hurt at all, and others that did, and the doctors were a tad bit concerned I might have thyroid cancer. So they stuck a big huge needle in my neck and told me not to swallow and of course I swallowed and that really sucked, let me tell you. Talk about pain. And blood. A shower of blood. Anyhow, I digress. I just...I DO NOT want to go to the doctor about this. They f*ed me up so bad last time that I really would prefer to let the reiki do its thang, and avoid the hassle, the cost, and the pain of letting people run a bazillion different tests on me.
Of course, if the lumps are still there in another week or so, I will go to the doctor. *sigh* I do plan on visiting the super sweet nurses at work. They will hopefully at least be able to tell if it's my lymph nodes or something else. I'm think it probably is my lymph nodes, I guess I just didn't realize I had so many. The right side of my thyroid is a little swollen, too, though, which is also a tad concerning. And I'm completely and utterly exhausted.
Poooooooo.
On the plus side, I am not letting this get me down. No sirreeeee. I've got free medical advice at work, I've got my superawesome boyfriend doing breathing exercises with me, I've sent an e-mail to my reiki masters beaming extra reiki my way. And, it's Shivaratri, which is Hindu god Shiva's special time. So the mantra "Om Namah Shivaya" (I honor God who dwells in me) is extra-useful/helpful to chant right now. I'm not anti-western medicine...I just prefer to try out less invasive methods first. Y'know?
Okies, I'm off.
And now, 7 years later, *cue creepy Poltergeist girl voice* they'rrrrrrrrreeee baaaaaaack.
Grrrrrrrrr. They are painful. They are all over the right side of my neck, and only the right side. I'm hoping it's actually some weird lymph node swelling thingamajig. Last time around, I did have two lumps that didn't hurt at all, and others that did, and the doctors were a tad bit concerned I might have thyroid cancer. So they stuck a big huge needle in my neck and told me not to swallow and of course I swallowed and that really sucked, let me tell you. Talk about pain. And blood. A shower of blood. Anyhow, I digress. I just...I DO NOT want to go to the doctor about this. They f*ed me up so bad last time that I really would prefer to let the reiki do its thang, and avoid the hassle, the cost, and the pain of letting people run a bazillion different tests on me.
Of course, if the lumps are still there in another week or so, I will go to the doctor. *sigh* I do plan on visiting the super sweet nurses at work. They will hopefully at least be able to tell if it's my lymph nodes or something else. I'm think it probably is my lymph nodes, I guess I just didn't realize I had so many. The right side of my thyroid is a little swollen, too, though, which is also a tad concerning. And I'm completely and utterly exhausted.
Poooooooo.
On the plus side, I am not letting this get me down. No sirreeeee. I've got free medical advice at work, I've got my superawesome boyfriend doing breathing exercises with me, I've sent an e-mail to my reiki masters beaming extra reiki my way. And, it's Shivaratri, which is Hindu god Shiva's special time. So the mantra "Om Namah Shivaya" (I honor God who dwells in me) is extra-useful/helpful to chant right now. I'm not anti-western medicine...I just prefer to try out less invasive methods first. Y'know?
Okies, I'm off.