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The world is caving in on me and there's nothing I can do. By telling my 'mama' I'd rather have her spend time WITH her grandson, as opposed to spending money ON him, I'm hurting her feelings. By asking for an 80GB, blue iPod for Christmas, instead of settling for a silver or black one at Wal-Mart, just because it's on sale and she gets a discount, I'm acting like a spoiled brat. But, it's perfectly alright, if my 'nana's barely speaking to me and slapping my face away with her hand, because a) It's supposedly my fault the house didn't sell and b) I'm lying when I say, "I love you", because I wouldn't have called the cops on her, if I really did. I would have just continued to let her get away with murder, because haven't you heard? Giving into someone else's wishes, regardless of whether they make you miserable or involve emotional/physical violence, is the only way to show love. Or it's about how much money you spend, not the amount of times you express how much love you feel for a particular person at any given time. My 'family' is busting apart at the seams; I barely see my 'dad' and, everytime I try calling him, he can't talk long, because it's costing too much and getting a land phone would be completely unheard of. So, instead, he throws money at me for carseats and Karaoke machines; again with the money, instead of time, approach :(