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[chocolate_fix]

I've been having a bad week. No specific reason. It's just.. bad. And it feels like it's only getting worse from here.

[[ I'm pissy for certain reasons discussed in my personal LJ post, so my Mello posts must suffer e.e; ]]

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[ex_disassemb313]

I'm sorry your week isn't going well. At least it's almost over and you can start a new week. So maybe next week will be a whole lot better!

[D: *loveson* Hope things get better.]

[chocolate_fix]

Yeah. I guess. But who knows?

Oh, and congrats. I just heard the great news.

[[ Me too .___. I sadly can't live without the computer. But luckily my mom works during the day >DD! ]]

[ex_disassemb313]

...*sighs*
And now you're going to be mad.
Just.
Christ.

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It's hard being alone. I didn't think it would be, but it is. I love you, you know. I don't love him. I like him, but I don't love him. But staying around, and loving you, and waiting... I would have been waiting for the rest of my life, Mello. And I know I basically made the worst possible choice for someone to date, in your opinion. I'm sorry for that. But know that no matter what, I love you, and I always will. That won't change.
I don't know if I could wait forever. But I would if you asked me to, you know.

[Aw, I can't live without my laptop. Well, I can, but I just hate having to >/ But yes, that's a good thing. So at least we can steal you during the day ;D]

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[chocolate_fix]

I'm not as mad as I thought I'd be.
But I understand. Just be careful.
I couldn't do that. It'd be unfair to you.

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[ex_disassemb313]

But you're still mad...
Of course I'll be careful. I'll be fine.
Oh yeah. Because me going off and dating one of the people you hate the most is fair. I just... You mean a lot to me. But it isn't fair to you if I'm just waiting around in the back for something to happen so that I'll get some sliver of a chance. And it isn't fair to Matt for me to do that, either. The last thing I want is to hurt any of you. 'specially you.

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[chocolate_fix]

I'll get over it eventually.
If you did it out of spite it wouldn't be fair, but I know that's not the case. Just stop worrying about it. I've got Matt and now you've got Draco. If anything, it's gets Draco out of my hair and I'm thankful for that.
Though if he gloats to me about this, I'm snapping his neck.

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[ex_disassemb313]

I'm sorry, Mello.
Of course I didn't do it out of spite. But you already know that, so now I'm stating the obvious. More than once. And continue to. x.x; Yeah, and it gets him away from trying to steal Matt. *snort*
I don't know if he will or not. But neck snapping isn't generally a good idea...

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[chocolate_fix]

No need for an apology.
Then you better make sure he watches his mouth around me.

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[ex_disassemb313]

Sure there is. We finally figure out our emotions then I go and... do this.
Alright, I'll try. I won't promise, though. Only because I'm not home all the time anymore...

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[chocolate_fix]

There was really no way around it either way. I'm sorry, but I wasn't planning on just leaving Matt for you.
That's okay. I'll let you know in full detail if he chooses to agitate me.

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[ex_disassemb313]

I know you weren't, and I told you that I knew that. And I also told you I would never ask you to, either.

Alright. I get it, so it's going to go back to how it was before.

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[chocolate_fix]

What? No. It's not. I'm not going to be an asshole to you because of something like this.

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[ex_disassemb313]

*sighs* You already were.

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[chocolate_fix]

..if that's how you see it.

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[ex_disassemb313]

How else should I have seen it?

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[chocolate_fix]

Just forget it. I guess things are going back to normal then.