i never date my actual type
and that may be because there aren't very many that are right for me. i think that's how it's supposed to be for everyone though. i mean, if there were too many perfect- for- you people, that'd probably cheapen the perfect- for- you person you're with...well the relationship you have anyway.
i'm a little sad. i don't think he gets it. i understand it's not the easiest thing because i'm so awkward sometimes but i still feel like unsatisfied. i know that people aren't perfect and people aren't going to be satisfied but i honestly don't want to change. i dunno if the problem is my philosophizingness or if it's my assumed sadness. the whole crazy ideas stuff isn't going to stop; i'm just like that and i enjoy it. i feel like life is worth more when you have an idea of how you want it to be or you appreciate more. w/e! the whole assumed sadness thing is bullshit because i'm not sad very often. i'm so optimistic but granted everyone gets sad sometimes. enough ranting because this isn't even really a problem. yet.
so i'm in love. there's this song my friend told me to download forever ago and it just finished today cause i kept signing off before it finished. and the song stated to play and at the lyrics came out i was like wow, i love this delivery. and it's kinda silly but i'm feeling like this is one of those songs to replace wild horses. hm, okay maybe not. but it's one of those songs you play in your head at the end of a movie where the lead role finds himself/herself. this is the song for closure. it's so beautiful freaking A!
oh, i want to party. like a stupid alcoholic. hehe.
sigh, these feelings will pass. till next time- this is reina marie melting into my atmosphere.
you stay classy, insert your name here.