my life is screwy
wow. so long since i last updated. STUPID FINALS. argg, i hate calculus, yet i think i'm going to stay in it. thats my stubborness comming through. i dont want to drop it, because i dont want to accept defeat. i will not give in. i will put up a fight. inside, i really like fighting. it's satisfying, but only if it's a joke-fight. those are fun. i'm a sick sick person. or maybe its my rebel, bad-girl side trying to break free. HA. sure.
i must be one of the best procrastinators. it's become such a bad habit. i think that if i was more busy, if my schedule was less lose, and i had more activities to do, then i'd be better at time management. haha, thats why i love being online, because you can only do so much while talking to people. boys and girls, that is a very bad habit. dont do it at home.
i feel so overwhelmed with everything, especially with finals, and this bridge i have to build, and all my christmas presents i have to finish. i have no one to blame but myself.
i've had this urge to go minigolfing for the longest time. i cant find anyone to go with me though. i tried asking a few people, but they didnt really seem interested. it's like, does no one want to do anything with me?! only irina and morgan ever seem interested. but nooo, people are so friendly on im, but when it's like, hey, want to hang out?, they get all skiddish. i dont get it. maybe it's a guy thing. and here's what i have to say to you: screw you. your loss.
haha, i'm so wonderful and nice, arent i. oh well.
so nervous about calc final. it all comes back around to school, doesnt it. how depressing. but, anyways, i did horrible, absolutely horrible on the first part of our exam. so it's so much pressure to do well on this part. i know i wont though. *sigh* what am i to do.
i want to go out and have fun. why cant i?
why is it that so many people seem to need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy? i mean, i can totally understand wanting one, because, sure i might just want one right now, but need one? no one really truely needs one, you just convince yourself that you do, that you cant be whole without someone by your side. but you can.
my bridge (assuming it gets done) is being broken on monday in 4th. how thrilling. try and come!!!!
just thought it'd be appropriate to end with school. seeing that my life revolves around it...i wish it wouldnt...