Opps , I did it again !
I almost end my r/n with him 2 days ago. I really really want to leave him alone and give him back a normal ,peaceful life.
Some friends said what I want from him is quite usual and I am not wrong at all. Boyfriend should treat me nicely and make me feel like princess. I mean at least occasional calls/sms/email would make my day.
However .. this is not his style of showing he loves me. He's weird and I know I have been trying my best to accept his "unique" way of loves. He said as long as he didnt have another girlfriend,he still think of me and put me in his plan , that means he loves me. He doesnt need to follow the trend, no need to buy gifts,write cards or call me. He has me in his heart.
To me...his explaination is quite logical and they make sense. But on one hand, I cannot feel the love I want. I am a normal girl or I lack of the feeling of secure due to an unhappy childhood. I want attentions,I need constant cares & concerns from my love ones. I dont want to be ignored for whole week and only chat for 10 mins in that week. It sounds like I am asking too much ?
People whom had been following my blog might know what's happening ... a long distance relationship + a mutual understanding is greatly needed. Somehow I think I'll fail the test because I can't receive the love i want...
Should I bear with this and live with it for the whole of my life ? He wont change and I might not change too... After that incident , my heart broke into pieces again . He becomes so sweet again . Damn , what can I do ? Enjoy that one week sweetness and following the bitterness ?
I will continue to stay at the moment ... because I simply cant imagine what my life would be without him.
Call me a coward ; p
Some friends said what I want from him is quite usual and I am not wrong at all. Boyfriend should treat me nicely and make me feel like princess. I mean at least occasional calls/sms/email would make my day.
However .. this is not his style of showing he loves me. He's weird and I know I have been trying my best to accept his "unique" way of loves. He said as long as he didnt have another girlfriend,he still think of me and put me in his plan , that means he loves me. He doesnt need to follow the trend, no need to buy gifts,write cards or call me. He has me in his heart.
To me...his explaination is quite logical and they make sense. But on one hand, I cannot feel the love I want. I am a normal girl or I lack of the feeling of secure due to an unhappy childhood. I want attentions,I need constant cares & concerns from my love ones. I dont want to be ignored for whole week and only chat for 10 mins in that week. It sounds like I am asking too much ?
People whom had been following my blog might know what's happening ... a long distance relationship + a mutual understanding is greatly needed. Somehow I think I'll fail the test because I can't receive the love i want...
Should I bear with this and live with it for the whole of my life ? He wont change and I might not change too... After that incident , my heart broke into pieces again . He becomes so sweet again . Damn , what can I do ? Enjoy that one week sweetness and following the bitterness ?
I will continue to stay at the moment ... because I simply cant imagine what my life would be without him.
Call me a coward ; p