Nov 29, 2007 18:35
Your Guardian Angel
When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
It's ok. It's ok. It's ok.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Cuz you're my, you're my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away,
Please tell me you'll stay, stay
Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Isa lang masasabi ko, Kurot sa Puso! Whenever I hear this song it reminds me of my "past"
when I say past it means yung mga tao na nagkaron ako ng strong feelings
at mga tao na muntik ko na mahalin.
I had the worst case of falling for someone at the wrong time and the wrong person.
I guess that one would be falling for my friend.
We were close, we were like twins,
we shared problems and stuff, you know the usual bestfriend thing.
Then, IT happen. I started to have feelings for that person.
I made "that person" feel I have feelings for "that person",
but it didn't work.
"That person", I guess was numb to feel that I was treating "that person" special.
I had that feelings for "that person" for about a year,no, it was more than a year.
Years full of misery, years of full of hope that
we would share the feeling.
Years of hoping that I could be the one and years of
taking for granted everyone that was special to me.
I started to feel that I was stupid for falling for someone who is MANHID and
someone who didn't care na MAY NAGMAMAHAL SA KANYA.
But that' s what you call LOVE.
The four letter word that gives me constant headaches and
that same four letter word that I started to dread the minute
I had strong feelings for "that person".
During fourth year high school, I was ready to forget "THE FEELINGS", but it was worst.
Knowing that...
Someone you know shared the same feelings you had for
"that person".
I didn't really care at first that we shared feelings for "that person".
It didn't matter to me because
I was already prepared to forget the feelings that
I have for "that person".
But I guess I wasn't prepared, no I wasn't ready yet
to forget the feeling or simply forgetting "that person".
An incident happend that I didn't know or my bestfriend didn't know
and they were the only persons who you knew it.
Later on I heard the WHOLE incident from both people involved, after hearing it I didn't know
what to do. I was confused.
I had all the emotions mixing together.
I wanted to be happy but sadness was dominating inside of me.
The whole experience was a reflection to me.
All the memories was slowly coming back.
And realized that WE ARE NOT MEANT TO BE TOGETHER.
And that WE SHOULD JUST REMAIN FRIENDS.
THAT'S ALL THAT WE COULD EVER BE. F-R-I-E-N-D-S.
Plain friends.
It took me a week to stop all the crying, the drama and the acceptance.
But the feelings I had for "that person" would
remain in my heart. It won't be erased.
I guess if anyone of you(those that are involved)
read this I ALREADY ACCEPTED IT AND
THAT THE FRIENDSHIP WE HAVE WILL STILL REMAIN.
You know who you are.
For those who know the story of the incident and
the story of "that person" I guess you know now
what I really felt before.
*yeah baby!*
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