[Health]: I just killed my body with radiation (x-rays) ...
Heyho~ 
Crazy week!
I desperately tried to find ice skates that fit me as I wanted to buy my own.
However, most shops didn't even have my size and the ones that did told me that it's the largest size there is and those were too small.
Apparently you need half a size-ish bigger for ice skates and as I have 42, I'd need a 42,5 which is 10,5 (US) / 8,5 (UK). Male figure skates are too wide.
I'm now opting for hockey skates instead of figure skates as they seem to have a bit more options in larger sizes, but jeez it's really tough to find shoes. :(
In other news, I went to yet another orthopedist this week in hope of finding a good doctor finally.
Unfortunately it was quite the contrary.
The doctor told me to have an x-ray of my lumbar spine (in 2 levels) and I'm so DAMN mad at myself that I didn't just say NO!
It was absolutely clear that this kind of examination wouldn't show any results concerning my problem. He just wanted to make money.
It's my own fault, but as things happened so fast …. I was overwhelmed. The x-ray room was right in the next room and a few seconds later I already stood half-naked in the machine …. Thinking NO DON'T DO IT! But I did ……..
So, I'm just utterly angry at myself that I did an x-ray with rather high radiation exposure (~ 1,1 msv which equals the natural radiation a normal person accumulates in half a year!!!!!) for NOTHING!!!
You only ever should do x-rays - or even worse CTs - when it's ABSOLUTELY necessary and all other diagnostic measurements failed.
Although I knew it, I still didn't say NO!
And as it was the lumbar region that was being x-rayed it also hit my already damaged / sick body parts = uterine fibroid / ovaries and gut. OMG! …..
On top of that the assistant who performed the x-ray asked me AFTER she was done if I'm pregnant .... WTH? I really hope she didn't make any other mistakes during the examination ... otherwise I'll be doomed.
They also gave me an empty sheet of paper for physical therapy but I didn't know it was empty until I was back home ... so I had to go again today ..... COMPLETE CHAOS THERE!
Yesterday I was ruminating the entire day, even crying over my own stupidity… Why am I so stupid? Why do I suck so much?
I try so, SO hard every day to regain my health by living a healthy lifestyle and then I'm shooting radiation on my already damaged body parts for NOTHING. SOOOOOOOOOOOOO STUPID!!!!
I already had quite a few x-rays, mammography and also a CT of my skull, so my medical radiation dose is rather high already. Plus I was near Chernobyl and Fukushima when the nuclear disaster happened …. so … yeah … I guess I'm close to reaching my lifetime limit soon.
What's done is done. That can't be helped.
I've already calmed down again. I just hope my body will be able to repair all the damage and DNA mutation that was caused by the radiation this time, but things like that ALWAYS definitely increase your cancer risk.
It doesn't mean you'll develop cancer. There are so many people who don't … just have a look at some of the Hiroshima survivors.
But it's so individual that nobody can tell you what'll happen to you and your body.
One thing is for sure, the body was damaged and now it's trying to repair itself and freaking out and having all those negative thoughts will definitely not help in creating a positive outcome.
I just try to remember how much I freaked out, so the next time a doctor suggests an x-ray or CT I'll never ever do it again unless it's really a life-threatening situation where I have no choice but to do it.
Phew …….
I went to my practitioner again today. We're now doing blood work to see if I have any food allergies. Not sure how accurate those blood tests are but it would be really strange if I tested positive for anything given the fact that I've tried so many elimination diets already.
It's going to be very expensive to do all the test, but we'll see.
I really hope you had a better week than I did.
Bye~chuu
Crazy week!
I desperately tried to find ice skates that fit me as I wanted to buy my own.
However, most shops didn't even have my size and the ones that did told me that it's the largest size there is and those were too small.
Apparently you need half a size-ish bigger for ice skates and as I have 42, I'd need a 42,5 which is 10,5 (US) / 8,5 (UK). Male figure skates are too wide.
I'm now opting for hockey skates instead of figure skates as they seem to have a bit more options in larger sizes, but jeez it's really tough to find shoes. :(
In other news, I went to yet another orthopedist this week in hope of finding a good doctor finally.
Unfortunately it was quite the contrary.
The doctor told me to have an x-ray of my lumbar spine (in 2 levels) and I'm so DAMN mad at myself that I didn't just say NO!
It was absolutely clear that this kind of examination wouldn't show any results concerning my problem. He just wanted to make money.
It's my own fault, but as things happened so fast …. I was overwhelmed. The x-ray room was right in the next room and a few seconds later I already stood half-naked in the machine …. Thinking NO DON'T DO IT! But I did ……..
So, I'm just utterly angry at myself that I did an x-ray with rather high radiation exposure (~ 1,1 msv which equals the natural radiation a normal person accumulates in half a year!!!!!) for NOTHING!!!
You only ever should do x-rays - or even worse CTs - when it's ABSOLUTELY necessary and all other diagnostic measurements failed.
Although I knew it, I still didn't say NO!
And as it was the lumbar region that was being x-rayed it also hit my already damaged / sick body parts = uterine fibroid / ovaries and gut. OMG! …..
On top of that the assistant who performed the x-ray asked me AFTER she was done if I'm pregnant .... WTH? I really hope she didn't make any other mistakes during the examination ... otherwise I'll be doomed.
They also gave me an empty sheet of paper for physical therapy but I didn't know it was empty until I was back home ... so I had to go again today ..... COMPLETE CHAOS THERE!
Yesterday I was ruminating the entire day, even crying over my own stupidity… Why am I so stupid? Why do I suck so much?
I try so, SO hard every day to regain my health by living a healthy lifestyle and then I'm shooting radiation on my already damaged body parts for NOTHING. SOOOOOOOOOOOOO STUPID!!!!
I already had quite a few x-rays, mammography and also a CT of my skull, so my medical radiation dose is rather high already. Plus I was near Chernobyl and Fukushima when the nuclear disaster happened …. so … yeah … I guess I'm close to reaching my lifetime limit soon.
What's done is done. That can't be helped.
I've already calmed down again. I just hope my body will be able to repair all the damage and DNA mutation that was caused by the radiation this time, but things like that ALWAYS definitely increase your cancer risk.
It doesn't mean you'll develop cancer. There are so many people who don't … just have a look at some of the Hiroshima survivors.
But it's so individual that nobody can tell you what'll happen to you and your body.
One thing is for sure, the body was damaged and now it's trying to repair itself and freaking out and having all those negative thoughts will definitely not help in creating a positive outcome.
I just try to remember how much I freaked out, so the next time a doctor suggests an x-ray or CT I'll never ever do it again unless it's really a life-threatening situation where I have no choice but to do it.
Phew …….
I went to my practitioner again today. We're now doing blood work to see if I have any food allergies. Not sure how accurate those blood tests are but it would be really strange if I tested positive for anything given the fact that I've tried so many elimination diets already.
It's going to be very expensive to do all the test, but we'll see.
I really hope you had a better week than I did.
Bye~chuu