Same old songs on a brand new stereo
I feel like I'm slowly dying inside.
I find it incredibly difficult to concentrate on anything anymore. But why is this surprising, considering that every moment of the day I feel like I'm going to burst into tears? I can't focus on anything but the pain.
I'm worrying myself to the point of sickness....about my body, both my mental and physical health. I worry about the future. I worry about what I do to myself. I worry about WHAT is happening to me. I'm an absolute mess.
I don't even know what to say anymore. I'm in an absolute state of isolation, anxiety, and fragility. One touch, one inquiry, and I'll break.
My thoughts are murderous to myself.
Getting out and driving around does nothing to me anymore. If anything, all I want to do is stay in my bed and never leave my room.
I feel as though a protection barrier has been penetrated....broken beyond repair.
I honestly feel like I'm dying. I don't feel alive. I feel numb. All I want is a shoulder to lean on or an ear to listen....a hand to hold. But I don't have any of it.
I need to go back to therapy. Medication alone ceases to cure me.
But where will I get the money?
...Another problem without a solution.
I find it incredibly difficult to concentrate on anything anymore. But why is this surprising, considering that every moment of the day I feel like I'm going to burst into tears? I can't focus on anything but the pain.
I'm worrying myself to the point of sickness....about my body, both my mental and physical health. I worry about the future. I worry about what I do to myself. I worry about WHAT is happening to me. I'm an absolute mess.
I don't even know what to say anymore. I'm in an absolute state of isolation, anxiety, and fragility. One touch, one inquiry, and I'll break.
My thoughts are murderous to myself.
Getting out and driving around does nothing to me anymore. If anything, all I want to do is stay in my bed and never leave my room.
I feel as though a protection barrier has been penetrated....broken beyond repair.
I honestly feel like I'm dying. I don't feel alive. I feel numb. All I want is a shoulder to lean on or an ear to listen....a hand to hold. But I don't have any of it.
I need to go back to therapy. Medication alone ceases to cure me.
But where will I get the money?
...Another problem without a solution.