Devistated

Aug 25, 2011 18:16

I'll honestly admit, I am slightly devistated ( Read more... )

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choc_lammington August 25 2011, 12:47:42 UTC
Hey hun, I wasn't having a go. Seriously, I said that several times. I hold nothing against you guys for shutting it down, please, I'm sorry if you misunderstood me. I was shocked yes, hurt a little, yes, but not because you guys didn't email me personally, mainly because I see sammi and you occassionally around a bit on FB and I didn't see it mentioned there so I came acorss it without warning, but I know you guys have all been busy with real life stuff, so have I. I think the whole timezone thing has a lot to do with not seeing each other online, but I know you understand that.

I've barely been on LJ up until a few weeks ago, ask anyone on my flist. I've not only had grandparent fall terminally ill, I've quit my job of 8 years and just moved cities away from family and friends, and have been busy studying and job hunting, so yes, I know life happens to all of us.

As I stated in my post that I knew you guys had no obligation to tell me anything, only that because I still consider you guys friends with me, i thought Sammi or Tonia would have mentioned something in a casual post.

I wasn't attacking you, so I don't know why you think I'm being self righteous. I was only posting about something that I had helped create, was proud of, and up until posting this entry thought was a thriving community and going well.

I did nothing but defend the actions of you guys, because they didn't need defending. I've sent tweets to Sammi and Tonia, in my shock, asking about BP, but I haven't heard back from them yet.

I went looking for you on twitter, and I only deleted by kailorien account only 2 days ago in order to create my new one btw, but I couldn't find you.

I knew your life was crazy. On the rare occassions I get to speak to Sammi, she said you were going through some life stuff, and I didn't want to interfere considering it'd been such a long time since we'd spoken properly and I didn't want you thinking I was doing it out of being nosey.

In defense of deleting my old LJ account, I gave people ample warning (like 3 weeks!) about the fact that I was still going to be around, they only needed to ask for my new username if they wanted to stay on my flist.
I deleted that journal because of all the negetive shit I was going through with losing my four little sisters to a fucked up government, so yeah, I needed to deal with moving forward and I let people know that.

But I do think of you, often, with a great fondness, and I enjoy seeing your updates, please don't see this post as an attack on you personally Ris, I know you did a wonderful job with BP! (I said that in my post) I was just shocked, and wanted to know what had happend for it not to be there anymore.

So if you can take a moment, re-read my post and know that I wasn't attacking you (because you are awesome, and you know I have always thought so), but see it from my perspective and let me know what happend with BP, I would be grateful.

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