AHHHH!
i'm gonna do this now i swear! i need something to let all my feelings out. i don't care if people don't read it. its more for me so i can get all this stuff on my mind out and on a computer chip so when i look back i say to myself hey! you were weird/stressed/mad/happy/sad/pissed/ etc. that day.
hockey started. i hate coach she thinks i'm really bad so she doesn't ever wanna play me.
adam makes me feel better about myself and everything in general 11/21! <3
christmas is soon and that also means new years is coming and that also means that 3 college deadlines are coming upon me quicker then i can handle. i'm so scared i'm so stressed. i have so much work to do and 2 projects due when break is over. leigh ann makes me mad so i'm stressed all day. IR is ok but mr. jean totally degraded my terrorism paper and made me sound like i've never written a paper before. "this is unbeleivably poorly written work for a honors class" well i did #1 turn it in 3 days late and #2 took me an hour to write. and it was basically a rough draft on a computer.
my mom makes me mad becuase all she talks to me about is college. never anything nice. shes always bitching at me about homework and work! I don't have hockey everyday so i told my boss that i could work one day durning the week. but apparently i can't because i should be doing homework. how does that work> i'm pretty sure if i work 3-8 or 5-10 theres plenty of time to do homework. plus my boss knows i play hockey so the past 3 weeks hes put me on for working one day a week its always been on monday in the photo lab and i work 6-10 which is nothing so theres time for homework there.
i have a 58% in chemisty and its becuase i've missed 5 homeworks but it makes it seem like i don't do it becuase if its not done all the way like 2 problems no done with their answers then its a 0. hats total bullshit i hate mr. o'malley. he can go die in a fire becuase seriously i'm sick of him. i wanna switch out of chem his class or the whole course itself. i can't take it anymore. i don't even know why i'm taking 2 sciences. chem is an elective aka its not required but it would look good on college applications. oh god there goes that word again! i can't stand it. i told myself at the beginning since i wasn't gonna play field hockey that i would sit down and do all my homework fully and completely becuase first term is what administration looks at. well that didn't work out too well. i got a 55 in math which is unacceptable to rhode island hospital school of diagnostic imaging. but i brought that up this term to a 75 which on their standards is good. i'm hoping me and my guidance consulour can send a note saying that i'll be sending a better transcript then this one and tell them i'm bringing everything up to honor role worthy grades. and hopefully they accept me or go along with that. if not i really wanna go to massbay or massasoit or rhode island community college. or umass dartmouth becuase i wanna go to school in RI. or somewhat close. and if i get accepted to UMASSD then i wanna just take courses to get credit and then transfer to the radiology program at RI hopsital. I REALLY WANNA DO THIS but i SUCK AT LIFE and i can't do it.
i know being negative about all of this isn't really going to help me motivate to get things done and in on time but i mean come on! what can be said positively about this situation? "christine your doing great getting 58%s in chemistry i'm glad your trying really hard and doing so well" NO I DON'T THINK SO!
i need adam! hes everything to me and hes so good to me. encouraging me and telling me that everything will be ok. comforting me when i cry. telling me i look beautiful when i cry. staying up late to talk to me when i need to. being his personal alarm clock. showing me a side of me that i've never let people see.
i've been under a independent woman spell that hes released me from and i love it. he makes me feel like nothing in the world can bring me down. his "money doesn't matter" arguments are fun to listen to. he gives me heart attacks and i give him boners.
you give me heartattacks.
hockey started. i hate coach she thinks i'm really bad so she doesn't ever wanna play me.
adam makes me feel better about myself and everything in general 11/21! <3
christmas is soon and that also means new years is coming and that also means that 3 college deadlines are coming upon me quicker then i can handle. i'm so scared i'm so stressed. i have so much work to do and 2 projects due when break is over. leigh ann makes me mad so i'm stressed all day. IR is ok but mr. jean totally degraded my terrorism paper and made me sound like i've never written a paper before. "this is unbeleivably poorly written work for a honors class" well i did #1 turn it in 3 days late and #2 took me an hour to write. and it was basically a rough draft on a computer.
my mom makes me mad becuase all she talks to me about is college. never anything nice. shes always bitching at me about homework and work! I don't have hockey everyday so i told my boss that i could work one day durning the week. but apparently i can't because i should be doing homework. how does that work> i'm pretty sure if i work 3-8 or 5-10 theres plenty of time to do homework. plus my boss knows i play hockey so the past 3 weeks hes put me on for working one day a week its always been on monday in the photo lab and i work 6-10 which is nothing so theres time for homework there.
i have a 58% in chemisty and its becuase i've missed 5 homeworks but it makes it seem like i don't do it becuase if its not done all the way like 2 problems no done with their answers then its a 0. hats total bullshit i hate mr. o'malley. he can go die in a fire becuase seriously i'm sick of him. i wanna switch out of chem his class or the whole course itself. i can't take it anymore. i don't even know why i'm taking 2 sciences. chem is an elective aka its not required but it would look good on college applications. oh god there goes that word again! i can't stand it. i told myself at the beginning since i wasn't gonna play field hockey that i would sit down and do all my homework fully and completely becuase first term is what administration looks at. well that didn't work out too well. i got a 55 in math which is unacceptable to rhode island hospital school of diagnostic imaging. but i brought that up this term to a 75 which on their standards is good. i'm hoping me and my guidance consulour can send a note saying that i'll be sending a better transcript then this one and tell them i'm bringing everything up to honor role worthy grades. and hopefully they accept me or go along with that. if not i really wanna go to massbay or massasoit or rhode island community college. or umass dartmouth becuase i wanna go to school in RI. or somewhat close. and if i get accepted to UMASSD then i wanna just take courses to get credit and then transfer to the radiology program at RI hopsital. I REALLY WANNA DO THIS but i SUCK AT LIFE and i can't do it.
i know being negative about all of this isn't really going to help me motivate to get things done and in on time but i mean come on! what can be said positively about this situation? "christine your doing great getting 58%s in chemistry i'm glad your trying really hard and doing so well" NO I DON'T THINK SO!
i need adam! hes everything to me and hes so good to me. encouraging me and telling me that everything will be ok. comforting me when i cry. telling me i look beautiful when i cry. staying up late to talk to me when i need to. being his personal alarm clock. showing me a side of me that i've never let people see.
i've been under a independent woman spell that hes released me from and i love it. he makes me feel like nothing in the world can bring me down. his "money doesn't matter" arguments are fun to listen to. he gives me heart attacks and i give him boners.
you give me heartattacks.