My conversation with Jason
Jason : Aku tengok kau ni lain macam. Tak macam dulu.
Me: Aku okay je, bro. Cuma tengah mood swing je. Bukan PMS okay.
Jason : Aku tau. Kau bukannya jenis yang suka guna alasan PMS sebagai lesen untuk kau marah-marah. By the way, aku tau kau ada problem. Bagitau aku jelah.
Me: Okay. Camni, aku tak tau kenapa aku asyik marah-marah je. Benda kecik pun aku boleh melenting. Seriously, aku tak tau apa yang terjadi kat diri aku ni.
Jason : Kenapa? Ada yang kau tak puas hati?
Me: Banyak kot. Tak tau mana nak start.
Jason : You just start with the one that bothers you most lah.
Me: Okay. Basically, aku rasa aku hidup kat dunia ni kena puaskan hati orang lain. I basically have to take into account other people's perception, opinions and thoughts about certain things. You noticed that sometimes I hate or like things because those who are closest to me like or hate them. Whenever I like something that they don't like, I tend to get really pissed off (dalam diam lah). Tapi, most of the times, I was like 'whatever lah, aku bukannya clone kau pun'.
Jason : Alah! Kau ni sensitive sangat. Kau nak buat apa yang kau nak, kau buat je lah. As long as you're not incurring any sins, why not right? Don't get too preoccupied with what others think lah.
Me: Easy for you to say. You're a guy. People don't really care what guys do because boys will be boys. As for girls, we have to watch our manners. Sometimes, I feel that I'm not polite enough. I'm not sensitive enough. I'm too freaky. I always feel that I'm under the scrutiny of those people. As in, those older generation. They claimed that they know stuff. That they can see through you. They can prejudge you when they look at you, stuff like that.
Jason : Let me ask you one simple question. Do you ACTUALLY want to be a daughter-in-law to people like that????? Honestly, weih!
Me: No way! Tak tahan okay.
Jason : See!!!!! I also don't want okay! It doesn't matter whether their child is such a nice person, good-looking, everything you ever wanted type of person. With parents like those, aku pun tak sanggup! Kau tak patut kisah sangat pasal orang camtu, tak kisah lah tua ke muda. Diorang cuma bystander je dalam hidup kau. Kau fokus kat main characters sudah lah. You said it yourself, caring too much what other people think about you leads to stress, depression, misanthropy, SAD, PD and SD.
Me: True.
Jason : If someone acts like that to you konon they know everything about you even if they just met you, just tell them to take ALL of their crap and shove it back to their ass.
Me: Kan? Tapi, first impression tu penting tau.
Jason : True, but first impression doesn't say everything about you. You gotta dig deeper before making conclusions. Macam nak cari harta karun. Kau tak boleh nak rely on keadaan tanah je, you have to dig deeper only you can find the treasure. Plus, if you rely on first impression only, will you have friends like you have now?
Me: No. I learn that first impression can lie to you.
Jason : See!! Tuhan pun tak judge manusia tau. Dia tunggu sampai hari kiamat baru judge kau ;)
Me: Wah! Boleh tahan kau cakap pasal Tuhan :p
Jason : Haha! I have my sources. Don't worry lah. You worry too much lah. You're only 23 and not even running the country.
Me: Okay, okay. I understand lah, Jason.
Jason : By the way, aku rasa orang yang suka judge orang ni sebenarnya rugi. Rugi pasal diorang banyak miss benda yang diorang tak tau. Kau jangan jadi macam diorang pulak.
Me: Don't worry lah, bro. I won't. Pray for me for backup lah :p
Jason : Yelah yelah. Okay lah, I gotta jet. See ya!!
Thanks a bunch, Jason. I need that :)
Me: Aku okay je, bro. Cuma tengah mood swing je. Bukan PMS okay.
Jason : Aku tau. Kau bukannya jenis yang suka guna alasan PMS sebagai lesen untuk kau marah-marah. By the way, aku tau kau ada problem. Bagitau aku jelah.
Me: Okay. Camni, aku tak tau kenapa aku asyik marah-marah je. Benda kecik pun aku boleh melenting. Seriously, aku tak tau apa yang terjadi kat diri aku ni.
Jason : Kenapa? Ada yang kau tak puas hati?
Me: Banyak kot. Tak tau mana nak start.
Jason : You just start with the one that bothers you most lah.
Me: Okay. Basically, aku rasa aku hidup kat dunia ni kena puaskan hati orang lain. I basically have to take into account other people's perception, opinions and thoughts about certain things. You noticed that sometimes I hate or like things because those who are closest to me like or hate them. Whenever I like something that they don't like, I tend to get really pissed off (dalam diam lah). Tapi, most of the times, I was like 'whatever lah, aku bukannya clone kau pun'.
Jason : Alah! Kau ni sensitive sangat. Kau nak buat apa yang kau nak, kau buat je lah. As long as you're not incurring any sins, why not right? Don't get too preoccupied with what others think lah.
Me: Easy for you to say. You're a guy. People don't really care what guys do because boys will be boys. As for girls, we have to watch our manners. Sometimes, I feel that I'm not polite enough. I'm not sensitive enough. I'm too freaky. I always feel that I'm under the scrutiny of those people. As in, those older generation. They claimed that they know stuff. That they can see through you. They can prejudge you when they look at you, stuff like that.
Jason : Let me ask you one simple question. Do you ACTUALLY want to be a daughter-in-law to people like that????? Honestly, weih!
Me: No way! Tak tahan okay.
Jason : See!!!!! I also don't want okay! It doesn't matter whether their child is such a nice person, good-looking, everything you ever wanted type of person. With parents like those, aku pun tak sanggup! Kau tak patut kisah sangat pasal orang camtu, tak kisah lah tua ke muda. Diorang cuma bystander je dalam hidup kau. Kau fokus kat main characters sudah lah. You said it yourself, caring too much what other people think about you leads to stress, depression, misanthropy, SAD, PD and SD.
Me: True.
Jason : If someone acts like that to you konon they know everything about you even if they just met you, just tell them to take ALL of their crap and shove it back to their ass.
Me: Kan? Tapi, first impression tu penting tau.
Jason : True, but first impression doesn't say everything about you. You gotta dig deeper before making conclusions. Macam nak cari harta karun. Kau tak boleh nak rely on keadaan tanah je, you have to dig deeper only you can find the treasure. Plus, if you rely on first impression only, will you have friends like you have now?
Me: No. I learn that first impression can lie to you.
Jason : See!! Tuhan pun tak judge manusia tau. Dia tunggu sampai hari kiamat baru judge kau ;)
Me: Wah! Boleh tahan kau cakap pasal Tuhan :p
Jason : Haha! I have my sources. Don't worry lah. You worry too much lah. You're only 23 and not even running the country.
Me: Okay, okay. I understand lah, Jason.
Jason : By the way, aku rasa orang yang suka judge orang ni sebenarnya rugi. Rugi pasal diorang banyak miss benda yang diorang tak tau. Kau jangan jadi macam diorang pulak.
Me: Don't worry lah, bro. I won't. Pray for me for backup lah :p
Jason : Yelah yelah. Okay lah, I gotta jet. See ya!!
Thanks a bunch, Jason. I need that :)