A screaming red fires through my veins
Take me where the clouds are high
and I'll no longer cry
Caught in confusion, of torment, of despair
Trapped in a sense that I no longer care
Letting go of myself, I can't stand still
Hating myself is causing the kill
A distorted self image never ceasing to go away
Standing under cold trickling water hoping that in the end I'll be ok
Jittery, moving constantly, never ending thoughts and battling my own ideas
Scared of myself, of what I feel
Forgetting who I am, where I'm at, but never who I once was
Stuck in a past of regret, hurt, shame, and broken love
A dizzy hypnotic mess, I'm convincing myself of things never true
Trying to keep myself together, I became unglued
A false image of what strength is
I tell myself that I am this
Attempting to forget how weak I am
I fall down with shaking hands
A nervous wreck, I'm breaking down
Scared of everything, of myself, of what I've found
A thumb sucking lullaby fix is what I need
Now shake me, wake me, and say that this is not me
That I don't feel like there's a crack in my heart
That my world is not falling apart
Bring me back to a familiar place, Before I slip a bloody trip of destruction
One of lies, cutting,binging, purging, and massive amounts of seduction
Open wounds doused in salt
I lay down, knees cuddled into my chest, knowing it will always be my fault
The better end of it all never existed , the tears trickle down
Knowing that not alone, I feel alone now
By cheryl Wolfe
and I'll no longer cry
Caught in confusion, of torment, of despair
Trapped in a sense that I no longer care
Letting go of myself, I can't stand still
Hating myself is causing the kill
A distorted self image never ceasing to go away
Standing under cold trickling water hoping that in the end I'll be ok
Jittery, moving constantly, never ending thoughts and battling my own ideas
Scared of myself, of what I feel
Forgetting who I am, where I'm at, but never who I once was
Stuck in a past of regret, hurt, shame, and broken love
A dizzy hypnotic mess, I'm convincing myself of things never true
Trying to keep myself together, I became unglued
A false image of what strength is
I tell myself that I am this
Attempting to forget how weak I am
I fall down with shaking hands
A nervous wreck, I'm breaking down
Scared of everything, of myself, of what I've found
A thumb sucking lullaby fix is what I need
Now shake me, wake me, and say that this is not me
That I don't feel like there's a crack in my heart
That my world is not falling apart
Bring me back to a familiar place, Before I slip a bloody trip of destruction
One of lies, cutting,binging, purging, and massive amounts of seduction
Open wounds doused in salt
I lay down, knees cuddled into my chest, knowing it will always be my fault
The better end of it all never existed , the tears trickle down
Knowing that not alone, I feel alone now
By cheryl Wolfe