Hmmm
No matter what it seems I'm still good at turning my mood sour.
I've been thinking about.. well... me an awful lot lately. The old Who i am? What do I want? where am I going? The usual stuff. As always it leads to this downward spiral of mixed up feelings, unsurity and bottled up emotion that doesn't seem to want to know if its hysterical laughter, screams of anger, or maddness. Or all three. The thing mostly praying on my mind is the whole "Future Dreams" things. At first I'd thought I had forgotten about whatever it was I had dreamed about when I was a kid, but on looking back and talking with a few folks and family, the thing I'd forgotten was I never had any dreams for the future even when I was a kid.
Well thats all that, and that's depressing for me and doesn't seem to end. On other news I tried to play FF12 again and discovered why I can't stand it. It seems that, while I don't particularly hate anything it does, I don't like anything it does either. The fighting system is kinda... there. Its not bad, its not good, it works but, thats it, which is mostly how I feel about everything in the game. So its like a big bag of bleh, that I wish I could stomach so I could play it and watch all the Gorgeous CG thats no doubt in it, and the passable to excellent plot, set in a world I acually thinks cool, but alas it is not meant to be.
I then played a lot of DQ8. A game I still pick up and play every now and then, all on the same playthrough. Up to 62 hours now. 4 of them was speant in the casino this Sunday, where I won and lot over 10,000 tokens. nothing lost, nothing gained. One day I may actually complete it. I'm telling you, that Bingo game is cheating!
COOL AWESOME THING AT THEN END!
My parents told me they've basically brought a new house! A Bungalow! I can't believe it! They've lived in 126 for 29 years but it seems its finally time to move on. I've seen pictures of the place but thats about it. Christmas is going to feel a little strange when I go down. But awesome.
so yeah! Life!