fortune cookie
"Enjoy life! It is better to be happy than wise."
hahahahahaha
so I'm realizing.
"the best often die by their own hand
just to get away,
and those left behind
can never quite understand
why anybody
would ever want to
get away
from
them"
- why can't all alcoholics be like Bukowski?
wisdom should not have any negative connotations. but it does. humanity doesn't have very many redeeming qualities...
but I'm feeling better.
I thought I would feel relieved or hopeful or just something better after finishing Prozac Nation. because someone else knew exactly what I was feeling, had put it into words that I could show other people instead of trying, with futility, to explain it myself. but I did not. I should stick to fiction, it's less frightening.
but orientation was much better than I expected. succeeded in making me, among about a thousand other incoming freshmen, curse the fact that summer is still in full swing- we won't be heading off to college for a colossal 5 weeks. I am in all honesty very, very excited. Ithaca [college in general] gives me hope for humanity. but mostly for my life... there are people there I actually want to be around, things I actually want to learn, I want to wake up in the morning as long as I have someone to sit next to in the dining hall for breakfast.
my dreams, when I've actually been able to sleep well, have been smart (and entirely illogical) lately. last week I dreamt I was eating quite a lot of cauliflower: To see or eat cauliflower in your dream represents sadness and need to be uplifted. You dream indicates that the tough times that you are experiencing will soon be over.
nail -> head -> belief
p.s. "I understand" is probably the most ridiculous, fallacious statement anyone could ever make.
hahahahahaha
so I'm realizing.
"the best often die by their own hand
just to get away,
and those left behind
can never quite understand
why anybody
would ever want to
get away
from
them"
- why can't all alcoholics be like Bukowski?
wisdom should not have any negative connotations. but it does. humanity doesn't have very many redeeming qualities...
but I'm feeling better.
I thought I would feel relieved or hopeful or just something better after finishing Prozac Nation. because someone else knew exactly what I was feeling, had put it into words that I could show other people instead of trying, with futility, to explain it myself. but I did not. I should stick to fiction, it's less frightening.
but orientation was much better than I expected. succeeded in making me, among about a thousand other incoming freshmen, curse the fact that summer is still in full swing- we won't be heading off to college for a colossal 5 weeks. I am in all honesty very, very excited. Ithaca [college in general] gives me hope for humanity. but mostly for my life... there are people there I actually want to be around, things I actually want to learn, I want to wake up in the morning as long as I have someone to sit next to in the dining hall for breakfast.
my dreams, when I've actually been able to sleep well, have been smart (and entirely illogical) lately. last week I dreamt I was eating quite a lot of cauliflower: To see or eat cauliflower in your dream represents sadness and need to be uplifted. You dream indicates that the tough times that you are experiencing will soon be over.
nail -> head -> belief
p.s. "I understand" is probably the most ridiculous, fallacious statement anyone could ever make.