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I would like for people to be more consistent
but I would also like for people to be less predictable
I would like to stop thinking that everything about life is sad when I'm in the car with my mother
I would like to always be able to completely fill my lungs when I breathe
I would like to know what it is like to love freely, love at all
I need to lose my cynicism
I need to finish the books that I have started re-reading instead of just stopping when I get to my favorite and most comforting parts
I need a lot of things
I wish my bitch cat would stop being a predator so that there will be birds in the tulip tree again
and I wish that reacting to my thoughts with self-degradation WAS NOT SECOND NATURE. I don't hate me. I actually think I'm a pretty wonderful person, most of the time. we're just going through a rough patch. having a lover's quarrel with the world, and with myself. but "lovers quarrels are the renewal of love..." or something like that. I am hoping. that's a good sign?
but I would also like for people to be less predictable
I would like to stop thinking that everything about life is sad when I'm in the car with my mother
I would like to always be able to completely fill my lungs when I breathe
I would like to know what it is like to love freely, love at all
I need to lose my cynicism
I need to finish the books that I have started re-reading instead of just stopping when I get to my favorite and most comforting parts
I need a lot of things
I wish my bitch cat would stop being a predator so that there will be birds in the tulip tree again
and I wish that reacting to my thoughts with self-degradation WAS NOT SECOND NATURE. I don't hate me. I actually think I'm a pretty wonderful person, most of the time. we're just going through a rough patch. having a lover's quarrel with the world, and with myself. but "lovers quarrels are the renewal of love..." or something like that. I am hoping. that's a good sign?