Im a bitch today =)
I've been in a real just nasty mood today. Not like nasty nasty. Im nice to people who are nice to be, but I've been in the mood where I will do what I like when I like and if anyone has a problem about it I will voice out. Not like I usually do when I just sit there and go back to behaving. It's not just Shannon's actions yesterday, I'm pissed at people in general, and instead of being sad, this emotion got turned into anger. Yeah, Shannons actions is the major cause. And I know I know, it wasn't that big of a thing. But that's not the point to me. THe point is he is trying to be a parent to me, which is just about the same thing as him trying to get me to call him dad. And Im not going to fucking do that. I have a dad. Well Had. But I don't need another one. I don't need one to take his place. I had one dad. One. I can't have another. He and mom technically controlls me. Since he's gone its now mom. Just because he's married to her doesnt mean he gets to controll me. Legaly maybe, but in my mind, no fucking way, he has no right to. He had NOTHING to do with my upbringing, he had nothing to do with my genetics.
I dunno, it almost makes me feel like he's insulting my dad by doing that. Or like its a big slap in the face to him. Even though he's not alive, that was my dad. You still don't do that.
SO
In a little bit I leave with Jess, we're going to Friendlys and possibly Im staying the night with her. If any of them call we won't answer. Cause he said nothing about tonight. I took out all my dishes and fed the pets.
I just need to get out of the house.
Cause I can tell you this.
1)If I see Shannon Im gonna be much more pissed
2)If I see Shannon and he tries to talk to me especially about last night Im gonna flip out like I've never done before.
Anywho.
I must get ready.
I needed to rant though. I don't wanna throw all of this on Jess.
I wanna go hang out with her, and leave all these emotions behind.
Just not worry about it.
^Nei^
I dunno, it almost makes me feel like he's insulting my dad by doing that. Or like its a big slap in the face to him. Even though he's not alive, that was my dad. You still don't do that.
SO
In a little bit I leave with Jess, we're going to Friendlys and possibly Im staying the night with her. If any of them call we won't answer. Cause he said nothing about tonight. I took out all my dishes and fed the pets.
I just need to get out of the house.
Cause I can tell you this.
1)If I see Shannon Im gonna be much more pissed
2)If I see Shannon and he tries to talk to me especially about last night Im gonna flip out like I've never done before.
Anywho.
I must get ready.
I needed to rant though. I don't wanna throw all of this on Jess.
I wanna go hang out with her, and leave all these emotions behind.
Just not worry about it.
^Nei^