Drama
There're things I want to say here, but I don't know how to say them. Words come all too easily when I have opinions and when I'm annoyed. It's not that ranting makes me feel better, it's that if I don't say those things somewhere, I'll have them circling around in my head for hours.
I've tended to make people cry a lot with it, lately. I don't swallow it any more, which is probably the problem. I don't want to be angry for days over something I'll be over in a few hours if I say my piece. I'd rather not resent people and things for the stupid shit they do. It's more productive to call them on it.
I'm not a nice person. I make people that I care about cry because when something matters to me, I'm both blunt and forceful, and nobody likes getting smacked in the face with a sledgehammer. It's at the point now where some topics just can't be broached without it happening. I'm not sure that taking a step away from those topics would stop the arguments.
Some things, lately, have left me feeling used and unappreciated. It's a sentiment that's been compounded more and more. The more some topics come up, the worse it gets, the blunter I am, the more I make people cry. So I withdraw further and further, to give myself less things to get angry about, so I don't hurt the people I care about so much, and it doesn't work.
I don't know what to do any more, but saying sorry is out of the question.
I've tended to make people cry a lot with it, lately. I don't swallow it any more, which is probably the problem. I don't want to be angry for days over something I'll be over in a few hours if I say my piece. I'd rather not resent people and things for the stupid shit they do. It's more productive to call them on it.
I'm not a nice person. I make people that I care about cry because when something matters to me, I'm both blunt and forceful, and nobody likes getting smacked in the face with a sledgehammer. It's at the point now where some topics just can't be broached without it happening. I'm not sure that taking a step away from those topics would stop the arguments.
Some things, lately, have left me feeling used and unappreciated. It's a sentiment that's been compounded more and more. The more some topics come up, the worse it gets, the blunter I am, the more I make people cry. So I withdraw further and further, to give myself less things to get angry about, so I don't hurt the people I care about so much, and it doesn't work.
I don't know what to do any more, but saying sorry is out of the question.