Well, I have a PUPPP rash on 60% of my body caused by some DNA deal with the placenta and I have terrible pain in my hips from my fibromyalgia. Walking anymore is a chore..I don't jsut waddle, I waddle moan and cry.
It was just something he threw out there, I don't have to do it and won't. The phrase "stripping membranes" is enough to send me into a downward spiral of...of....well, its a bad thought for me. And that hook thing they use to break your water? AHHHHHH!! :X Like something froma Tool music video.
Just isn't natural. He seems to think "you're getting an epidural..you won't care" oh hell yes i will. I asked him out of curiosity if he thought it'd be 8lbs and up. (Noah was 6lbs) He said "well, even if its 15 lbs...you wont feel it, your having an epidural."
Uh.. does that mean he has permission to rip me apart cuz i won't feel it?
I cried and cried from fear last night...the FIRST time in my whole pregnancy this time and that is HUGE for me. (My 1st pregnancy? Forget about it...all i did was cry fromt he "what-ifs")
I wept thinking "what if they do crap to me at the hopital AGAIN time that i don't want?" "what if i can't stand up to them?"
I just wanna be in control of my own body...no slice and dice...no unwanted ingrediants...I wanna be on top of it all...KWIM? But I fear i'll sucumb to the pain and get pushed around.
My DH said "oh no..we're telling the Dr next visit EXACTLY what we want..if he doesn't like it...he is fired..he works for us!"
I dried up immediately and got that certain gleam in my eye.
He is my true hero and champion. IS THAT HOTT OR WHAT? Think i should have a baby with him? lol!
It was just something he threw out there, I don't have to do it and won't.
The phrase "stripping membranes" is enough to send me into a downward spiral of...of....well, its a bad thought for me. And that hook thing they use to break your water? AHHHHHH!! :X Like something froma Tool music video.
Just isn't natural. He seems to think "you're getting an epidural..you won't care"
oh hell yes i will.
I asked him out of curiosity if he thought it'd be 8lbs and up. (Noah was 6lbs) He said "well, even if its 15 lbs...you wont feel it, your having an epidural."
Uh.. does that mean he has permission to rip me apart cuz i won't feel it?
I cried and cried from fear last night...the FIRST time in my whole pregnancy this time and that is HUGE for me. (My 1st pregnancy? Forget about it...all i did was cry fromt he "what-ifs")
I wept thinking "what if they do crap to me at the hopital AGAIN time that i don't want?" "what if i can't stand up to them?"
I just wanna be in control of my own body...no slice and dice...no unwanted ingrediants...I wanna be on top of it all...KWIM?
But I fear i'll sucumb to the pain and get pushed around.
My DH said "oh no..we're telling the Dr next visit EXACTLY what we want..if he doesn't like it...he is fired..he works for us!"
I dried up immediately and got that certain gleam in my eye.
He is my true hero and champion.
IS THAT HOTT OR WHAT?
Think i should have a baby with him?
lol!
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