mix & picspam; journey: part one [sasha/payson]
remember when i said i was done making mixes for a while? well, apparently i lied :') literally as soon as i said that, I got completely hooked on this show, and obsessed with this pairing, and i could not stop thinking about making a mix until i'd done it lol so this is the last one for now. no more!
title: journey: part one
pairing: sasha/payson
fandom: make it or break it
spoilers: all aired eps
summary: this is their journey together.
notes: i've split this into two parts because it's pretty massive. the download links are linked at the bottom of part two, and you can leave any comments on that post too.
this pretty much covers the whole of canon and then some. all quotes are taken directly from the show.
also if you're an avid watcher of the show, you'll recognise a couple of the songs - this show has such great music selection, I had to squeeze a few of them in ;)
Front Cover | Back Cover
01. boyce avenue - will you be there
everyone's taking control of me
seems that the world's got a role for me
i'm so confused
will you show to me you'll be there for me
payson: You can't leave!
sasha: ....You're Payson Keeler.
payson: You... know who i am? Wait- wait! We need you here.
02. the fray - trust me
said there's a few things you should know
we don't want you to see
we come and we go
here today, gone tomorrow
we're only taking turns
holding this world
it's how it's always been
when you're older you will understand
sasha: You've chosen to do something few people are capable of. Look at each other. Go on - look. No one but your peers can understand what it takes to be the best gymnasts in the world - no one. Which is why you need each other. But mostly? You need me.
03. train - parachute
and when the world gets sharp and tries to cut you down to size
and makes you feel like giving in
i will stay
i will reign
i will wash the words and pain away
payson: I promise, I won't let you down.
sasha: I know.
04. athlete - chances
take all your chances while you can
never know when they'll pass you by
like a sum the mathematician cannot solve
like me trying my hardest to explain
sasha: Payson! Payson- Payson- can you hear me? Can you hear me?
05. dashboard confessional - shade of the poison trees
feel the pain
know the signs
is there truth in your pain?
you decide
if you knew what I know would you try?
is there time?
is there time to follow just one desire?
payson: A fracture can heal - sometimes in only a few months. Right? I'll be able to recover in time for the Olympics, right?
kim: Honey-
payson: No, gymnasts overcome these things all the time.
kim: This time it's a little different.
payson: What are you saying?
mark: Honey, we are really really sorry.
payson: No. No, it can't be over now. Not like this.
06. the rocket summer - peace come over you
here are your new eyes
it's time to see life with brand new sight
how could I now ever see positively?
it's hard trying to hold on
with all that I have lost
payson: I don't feel like anything. I can never compete again.
kim: No, you can't. And that's a terrible thing. But there's so much you can do. You have community, family, friends. You still have that. You didn't lose that.
07. coldplay - yellow
just skin
oh yeah, you're skin and bones
turn into something beautiful
and you know for you i'd bleed myself dry
for you i'd bleed myself dry
it's true, look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
sasha: Payson? I've been waiting for you.
payson: It's... okay that I came?
sasha: Champions are always welcome here.
08. joseph arthur - honey and the moon
don't know why I'm still afraid
if you weren't real I would make you up
now i wish that I could follow through
i know that your love is true and deep as the sea
but right now everything you want is wrong
and right now all your dreams are waking up
and right now I wish I could follow you
to the shores of freedom where no one lives
payson: Why didn't you tell me that it's my fault?
sasha: Excuse me?
payson: They didn't pick you to be the national coach because I broke my back.
sasha: It- it's more complex than that.
payson: They have no right to hold you responsible!
sasha: Actually they have every right.
payson: You didn't know! I lied about how much pain I was in!
sasha: Of course you did. Every gymnast competes in pain and the more you want it, the more you're willing to endure, and I have never seen anyone who wants it more than you, Payson. And that's why I should've known.
payson: I am the only one responsible for my injury. I'm gonna go tell the committee-
sasha: Payson. It won't matter. Please, sit down. There was another girl. It was while I was still coaching in Romania. Her name was Amelia, she was fourteen. She- she took a fall - off the bars, and hit her head pretty hard, but she got straight up and wanted to go again. She was- she was actually a lot like you. I made her sit out the rest of practice and - well she seemed fine so I told her parents that it was their call whether to take her to the doctors or to take her home and- they took her home. And uh- and an hour later she was dead.
payson: But how could you have known...
sasha: I should've insisted that she go the hospital.
payson: You told her parents!
sasha: It was a fatal lack of judgement - and I will never forgive myself.
09. chris garneau - over and over
it's not my fault
you said so
you said it over and over
now I'm in this thing, this fucking thing
i'm stuck over and over
yeah, I'm in this thing, this fucking thing
it's happening over and over
then you give me things they make me sad
you give them over and over
and I can't feel the days
but I'd like to say, remember the days when we used to?
but I don't feel them over and over
sasha: Payson. Are you okay? You'll find another dream.
payson: I'm done dreaming.
10. caitlyn smith - crushed & created
we are crushed and created
we are melted and made
we are broken and built up, in the very same way
what I thought I could handle
what I thought I could take
what I thought would destroy me leaves me stronger in its wake
sasha: Payson. You're in.
payson: Me?
sasha: You. You've been cleared to do gymnastics, let's go.
payson: But i'm working my way back with simple routines - it will never be enough to medal.
sasha: And Rachel wouldn't medal either, but you will inspire your team to do the impossible.
payson: Sasha, I haven't been on the bars since my injury, I- I can't. I'm- i'm so afraid of them.
emily: You've got this, Pay.
kaylie: You can do it, Payson.
emily: Payson, you were here to help me do this and now i'm here for you.
sasha: Come on.
11. matt wertz - gonna be good
i wanna see what you're made of
get up and fight, you know you should
try
there's nothing you should be afraid of
i'd take your place if i could
payson: Look, you were right and I was wrong. I wasn't ready to petition onto the national team and now i've blown my only chance to get onto the team and to go to Worlds.
sasha: This year, maybe. What about next?
payson: After i've grown another inch? Let's face it, my body's changing and i'll never be the same gymnast I was.
sasha: Yeah, that's true. But you can be a different kind of gymnast. Instead of being a power gymnast, you can be more of an artistic gymnast - like Nastia.
payson: But i'm not like her.
sasha: See, I disagree. Nastia came back from a stress fracture to her spine, ankle surgery and a nine inch growth spurt in a period of just five years. Now she didn't have the power of a Shawn Johnson - what she had, was meticulous execution and artistry.
payson: Don't you get it? Nastia's legs are longer than mine and she's a twig! She's built for all that graceful dance stuff - i'm just not!
sasha: Payson, just hear me out-
payson: No! Sasha if that's your plan then it's over for me. I can't be an artistic gymnast - I can't.
sasha: Payson!
12. brandon chandler - we are everything
there's a world outside
and we should see with our own eyes
with our own eyes
we are everything that we want to be
sasha: Hey, there you are.
payson: I don't know what's wrong with me. Why I feel so angry all the time.
sasha: There is nothing wrong with you, Payson. What you're feeling - it's very normal.
payson: No it's not. I'm so mad at Kaylie for being gymnast of the year, I'm mad at my own sister for passing me by, and- and i'm scared. I don't feel connected to gymnastics anymore - I don't feel like I love gymnastics like I used to.
sasha: Did you only love this sport because you were great?
payson: ...I guess it's easier to love something when you're good at it.
sasha: Yeah, I agree. But where does the passion come from - is it from where you are? Or where you want to be?
payson: Where you wanna be, I guess.
sasha: I will continue to hold the place for your greatness, Payson. Even if you can't right now. I will believe it for you, because you are a champion, Payson Keeler. and all I need from you right now - the only thing I need - is for you to show up. So can you do that? Can you keep showing up?
payson: Yes. Thank you.
sasha: Then we'll get there together.
13. needtobreathe - through smoke
when their whispers have painted pictures that make you doubt what you once believed in
paper stories that hide the glory
to keep us searching through smoke
who do you believe in when you can't get through?
when everything you know seems so untrue
when i'm lost in a place that I thought I knew
give me some way that I might find you
sasha: Payson, I know you always thought that was your road, and i'll admit - we're taking an unconventional route, but your training is just as important as anything they're doing inside that gym - and it will get us to where we wanna go, but if you need a reminder... I want you to have this.
payson: This is your olympic gold medal, Sasha, I- I can't take this.
sasha: I'm not giving it to you, i'm just lending it to you until you can replace it with one of your own.
PART TWO
title: journey: part one
pairing: sasha/payson
fandom: make it or break it
spoilers: all aired eps
summary: this is their journey together.
notes: i've split this into two parts because it's pretty massive. the download links are linked at the bottom of part two, and you can leave any comments on that post too.
this pretty much covers the whole of canon and then some. all quotes are taken directly from the show.
also if you're an avid watcher of the show, you'll recognise a couple of the songs - this show has such great music selection, I had to squeeze a few of them in ;)
Front Cover | Back Cover
01. boyce avenue - will you be there
everyone's taking control of me
seems that the world's got a role for me
i'm so confused
will you show to me you'll be there for me
payson: You can't leave!
sasha: ....You're Payson Keeler.
payson: You... know who i am? Wait- wait! We need you here.
02. the fray - trust me
said there's a few things you should know
we don't want you to see
we come and we go
here today, gone tomorrow
we're only taking turns
holding this world
it's how it's always been
when you're older you will understand
sasha: You've chosen to do something few people are capable of. Look at each other. Go on - look. No one but your peers can understand what it takes to be the best gymnasts in the world - no one. Which is why you need each other. But mostly? You need me.
03. train - parachute
and when the world gets sharp and tries to cut you down to size
and makes you feel like giving in
i will stay
i will reign
i will wash the words and pain away
payson: I promise, I won't let you down.
sasha: I know.
04. athlete - chances
take all your chances while you can
never know when they'll pass you by
like a sum the mathematician cannot solve
like me trying my hardest to explain
sasha: Payson! Payson- Payson- can you hear me? Can you hear me?
05. dashboard confessional - shade of the poison trees
feel the pain
know the signs
is there truth in your pain?
you decide
if you knew what I know would you try?
is there time?
is there time to follow just one desire?
payson: A fracture can heal - sometimes in only a few months. Right? I'll be able to recover in time for the Olympics, right?
kim: Honey-
payson: No, gymnasts overcome these things all the time.
kim: This time it's a little different.
payson: What are you saying?
mark: Honey, we are really really sorry.
payson: No. No, it can't be over now. Not like this.
06. the rocket summer - peace come over you
here are your new eyes
it's time to see life with brand new sight
how could I now ever see positively?
it's hard trying to hold on
with all that I have lost
payson: I don't feel like anything. I can never compete again.
kim: No, you can't. And that's a terrible thing. But there's so much you can do. You have community, family, friends. You still have that. You didn't lose that.
07. coldplay - yellow
just skin
oh yeah, you're skin and bones
turn into something beautiful
and you know for you i'd bleed myself dry
for you i'd bleed myself dry
it's true, look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
sasha: Payson? I've been waiting for you.
payson: It's... okay that I came?
sasha: Champions are always welcome here.
08. joseph arthur - honey and the moon
don't know why I'm still afraid
if you weren't real I would make you up
now i wish that I could follow through
i know that your love is true and deep as the sea
but right now everything you want is wrong
and right now all your dreams are waking up
and right now I wish I could follow you
to the shores of freedom where no one lives
payson: Why didn't you tell me that it's my fault?
sasha: Excuse me?
payson: They didn't pick you to be the national coach because I broke my back.
sasha: It- it's more complex than that.
payson: They have no right to hold you responsible!
sasha: Actually they have every right.
payson: You didn't know! I lied about how much pain I was in!
sasha: Of course you did. Every gymnast competes in pain and the more you want it, the more you're willing to endure, and I have never seen anyone who wants it more than you, Payson. And that's why I should've known.
payson: I am the only one responsible for my injury. I'm gonna go tell the committee-
sasha: Payson. It won't matter. Please, sit down. There was another girl. It was while I was still coaching in Romania. Her name was Amelia, she was fourteen. She- she took a fall - off the bars, and hit her head pretty hard, but she got straight up and wanted to go again. She was- she was actually a lot like you. I made her sit out the rest of practice and - well she seemed fine so I told her parents that it was their call whether to take her to the doctors or to take her home and- they took her home. And uh- and an hour later she was dead.
payson: But how could you have known...
sasha: I should've insisted that she go the hospital.
payson: You told her parents!
sasha: It was a fatal lack of judgement - and I will never forgive myself.
09. chris garneau - over and over
it's not my fault
you said so
you said it over and over
now I'm in this thing, this fucking thing
i'm stuck over and over
yeah, I'm in this thing, this fucking thing
it's happening over and over
then you give me things they make me sad
you give them over and over
and I can't feel the days
but I'd like to say, remember the days when we used to?
but I don't feel them over and over
sasha: Payson. Are you okay? You'll find another dream.
payson: I'm done dreaming.
10. caitlyn smith - crushed & created
we are crushed and created
we are melted and made
we are broken and built up, in the very same way
what I thought I could handle
what I thought I could take
what I thought would destroy me leaves me stronger in its wake
sasha: Payson. You're in.
payson: Me?
sasha: You. You've been cleared to do gymnastics, let's go.
payson: But i'm working my way back with simple routines - it will never be enough to medal.
sasha: And Rachel wouldn't medal either, but you will inspire your team to do the impossible.
payson: Sasha, I haven't been on the bars since my injury, I- I can't. I'm- i'm so afraid of them.
emily: You've got this, Pay.
kaylie: You can do it, Payson.
emily: Payson, you were here to help me do this and now i'm here for you.
sasha: Come on.
11. matt wertz - gonna be good
i wanna see what you're made of
get up and fight, you know you should
try
there's nothing you should be afraid of
i'd take your place if i could
payson: Look, you were right and I was wrong. I wasn't ready to petition onto the national team and now i've blown my only chance to get onto the team and to go to Worlds.
sasha: This year, maybe. What about next?
payson: After i've grown another inch? Let's face it, my body's changing and i'll never be the same gymnast I was.
sasha: Yeah, that's true. But you can be a different kind of gymnast. Instead of being a power gymnast, you can be more of an artistic gymnast - like Nastia.
payson: But i'm not like her.
sasha: See, I disagree. Nastia came back from a stress fracture to her spine, ankle surgery and a nine inch growth spurt in a period of just five years. Now she didn't have the power of a Shawn Johnson - what she had, was meticulous execution and artistry.
payson: Don't you get it? Nastia's legs are longer than mine and she's a twig! She's built for all that graceful dance stuff - i'm just not!
sasha: Payson, just hear me out-
payson: No! Sasha if that's your plan then it's over for me. I can't be an artistic gymnast - I can't.
sasha: Payson!
12. brandon chandler - we are everything
there's a world outside
and we should see with our own eyes
with our own eyes
we are everything that we want to be
sasha: Hey, there you are.
payson: I don't know what's wrong with me. Why I feel so angry all the time.
sasha: There is nothing wrong with you, Payson. What you're feeling - it's very normal.
payson: No it's not. I'm so mad at Kaylie for being gymnast of the year, I'm mad at my own sister for passing me by, and- and i'm scared. I don't feel connected to gymnastics anymore - I don't feel like I love gymnastics like I used to.
sasha: Did you only love this sport because you were great?
payson: ...I guess it's easier to love something when you're good at it.
sasha: Yeah, I agree. But where does the passion come from - is it from where you are? Or where you want to be?
payson: Where you wanna be, I guess.
sasha: I will continue to hold the place for your greatness, Payson. Even if you can't right now. I will believe it for you, because you are a champion, Payson Keeler. and all I need from you right now - the only thing I need - is for you to show up. So can you do that? Can you keep showing up?
payson: Yes. Thank you.
sasha: Then we'll get there together.
13. needtobreathe - through smoke
when their whispers have painted pictures that make you doubt what you once believed in
paper stories that hide the glory
to keep us searching through smoke
who do you believe in when you can't get through?
when everything you know seems so untrue
when i'm lost in a place that I thought I knew
give me some way that I might find you
sasha: Payson, I know you always thought that was your road, and i'll admit - we're taking an unconventional route, but your training is just as important as anything they're doing inside that gym - and it will get us to where we wanna go, but if you need a reminder... I want you to have this.
payson: This is your olympic gold medal, Sasha, I- I can't take this.
sasha: I'm not giving it to you, i'm just lending it to you until you can replace it with one of your own.
PART TWO