Death
I can't seem to stop thinking about death, and it's driving me crazy. I just keep thinking of it, that some day it will come, and I don't know what it is. I see myself I am myself, closing my eyes, and then..Just drifting away. And it gives me that butterfly anxious feeling in my stomach. It's making me lose sleep and making me not eat a lot, and I know that's not good, because then I'll just die sooner, and I don't want to. soo. yeaah. I just don't know. It's an awful thought.
Anyway, things have been okay aside from me not feeling well and feeling anxious and fearful. I keep crying a lot so I think I'm getting crazier. I guess I'll just have to deal with it.
We just played a game of D&D world of darkness or whatever it's called. I kinda didn't want to play because I didn't get much sleep last night. I had a nap, but it wasn't a good nap. But they made me play anyway. The bastards. Hopefully I'll get good sleep tonight and I won't think about death. But I guess the more I think about it the more I get used to the idea of becoming energy and bonding with the earth. Though I'd like my energy to become part of the sun or to go out in space or something.
I don't know. Crazy rantings of a crazy girl.
Markie Plante- 2007 April 11
Anyway, things have been okay aside from me not feeling well and feeling anxious and fearful. I keep crying a lot so I think I'm getting crazier. I guess I'll just have to deal with it.
We just played a game of D&D world of darkness or whatever it's called. I kinda didn't want to play because I didn't get much sleep last night. I had a nap, but it wasn't a good nap. But they made me play anyway. The bastards. Hopefully I'll get good sleep tonight and I won't think about death. But I guess the more I think about it the more I get used to the idea of becoming energy and bonding with the earth. Though I'd like my energy to become part of the sun or to go out in space or something.
I don't know. Crazy rantings of a crazy girl.
Markie Plante- 2007 April 11