To Hayley... I hope she gets this
This entry is directed at Hayley, so I hope she gets this.
Hayley,
I wanted you to know that after a lot of talking with others and thinking, I wanted to apologize. I guess I have been kind of a jerk, though I didn't mean to be. I never did mean to hurt you. I suppose I can live with us not being friends, but please don't hate me. I at least want you to accept me as a person, and accept that I didn't know what I was doing. I hope you can forgive me, and the next time we see eachother (if ever), I hope you'll be able to look at me as a person. I'm sorry for being such an idiot. I would have called you to tell you all this, but I'm afraid to hear you say what you might feel about me. I'm afraid to be hated by someone who was once so important to me. I'm over you now, so don't think I'm the same as I was. But I am afraid to be hated. So please, the next time you are reminded of me, please think of me as a friend, even if you don't want to see me, because I still want to be friends... even if you don't. I guess I'm done making excuses, so I really hope I can see you later. Bye for now.
Sincerely,
Sean
P.S. - If you do ever read this, I'd rather your boyfriend wasn't told about it.
Hayley,
I wanted you to know that after a lot of talking with others and thinking, I wanted to apologize. I guess I have been kind of a jerk, though I didn't mean to be. I never did mean to hurt you. I suppose I can live with us not being friends, but please don't hate me. I at least want you to accept me as a person, and accept that I didn't know what I was doing. I hope you can forgive me, and the next time we see eachother (if ever), I hope you'll be able to look at me as a person. I'm sorry for being such an idiot. I would have called you to tell you all this, but I'm afraid to hear you say what you might feel about me. I'm afraid to be hated by someone who was once so important to me. I'm over you now, so don't think I'm the same as I was. But I am afraid to be hated. So please, the next time you are reminded of me, please think of me as a friend, even if you don't want to see me, because I still want to be friends... even if you don't. I guess I'm done making excuses, so I really hope I can see you later. Bye for now.
Sincerely,
Sean
P.S. - If you do ever read this, I'd rather your boyfriend wasn't told about it.